Soul: Sharifah Nurulhuda
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Life is full of Ups and Downs...its your choice whether you want it be on the bright side or the other
Serious sey!!!!!!
I am undergoing the worst of the worst right now. And the worst thing again, I have nobody to turn to except to let go of my rants over here!!!!
I am no longer the "future" MMB but im already MMB. CONFIRMED! CAN YOU IMAGINED THAT!? I should feel happy and proud of myself that I am MMB cuz then I can let youths come to the mosque. More YOUTHS to come to the mosque cuz the youths in singapore are already off-course due to the media. THE MEDIA. Sometimes, I do pity these youths as well as pity myself. I used to be like them but what the heck, curiousity will bring you to your downfall. Ikut nafsu memang binasa.
Another thing, RC has just got promoted to be an AD. Seriously, these two bosses knows what I want yet they still ask. I want to be in Holland's Team but because of the project at hand, I want to be in RC's cuz RC knows more about this project. IF, IF ONLY I can be split into two. Anyways, I just have a feeling, I wont live much longer in this world. The feeling is just getting stronger by the day. Haiz...I just hope I have accomplished what HE has set for me before I leave this world for good.
I will really have to TAUBAT before itz really TOOOOO damn late for me. Haiz, doakanla supaya aku mati kerana iman bukan kerana nafsu serakah. I will pray for that cuz I dun want to be dead and end up in hell. Haiz...juz pray...
|8:47 PM|
Hello everyone!!!!
I am back again after one month. Ever wondered why I update this thing like so rarely??? Hmmm....the reason is most probably, I want to let go of my rants over here. Nowhere to go and hide, the blog is most probably the best place to go. So in order to not let people see this blog of mine, I have to rarely update it. Anyways, I tink the blog has seen less people coming in to read.
Who reads the blog anyways?? I dun see any tags to advice or just a simple hello so in conclusion, nobody reads the blog. Hahaz...
Anywayz...where was I??
Hmm...yeah
I have to make a choice. A choice which darn difficult to make. To choose between Poshgrove or Marina. I want to do both but the two bosses juz dun want me to do both. They think I cant handle both. Okiez, perhaps yes. Poshgrove is going thru a lot of NSC tenders in the coming months and I am so tight up. Nobody, NOBODY seems to know the stress that I am facing through. Marina is in the Main Contract Tender Stage, but at least for this one, I am just assisting. Poshgrove is "handling" the project. Obviously, I will choose poshgrove cuz I have technically handling the project so it would be sad to let go of this project. Haiz...if only I can cope with both. I should stretch and prove to both my bosses that I can COPE with 2 projects at the same time.
Yet again, nobody seems to know the stress. I dun even know who to turn to. When I told them my problems regarding work, the advice is to just remain calm. Not forgetting that I am the vice chairperson of youth club and future MMB. Haiz, everything seems to crush on me.
Remember the post that I sent last month, I am being busy but WHY, WHY do I still feel lonely and outcast??? Why do I feel nobody understands me anymore?? I really dunnoe. I am now doing a "motivational" session with myself. Trying to motivate myself as I am now at the bottom of the wheel, feeling so stressed up.
Which comes to the next point....I need that someone, just that someone, to understand how I feel. It need not be a boy..It can be a girl who can just understand me and motivate me so that I wont feel so lonely and outcast. One will do..need not be so many people...
Haiz.......................god has been kind enough to give me some guidance to lead thru this bottom of the wheel. So I shall stay strong and live this moment at the fullest cuz I know therez a fruit at the end of it !!!!
|1:33 PM|