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Life is full of Ups and Downs...its your choice whether you want it be on the bright side or the other
Hallo guyz..Soon, the picture of me without tudung will be off....Aha!
Wokayz...So yesterday was SUPER-LICIOUS long day and GREAT and I really mean GREAT event for me!!!! I dunnoe what did my friend did on his bdae but I guess sending him 1 same bdae card to all his email address which is TOTALLY intended would brightened things up.
The event started off EARLY in the morning at 7am. There was a sports event for the madrasah kids yesterday. Isnt that cool? I was in the same team as Asya'rie, Amin, Ust Farez and Farah. We were in charge of Pri 1 and Pri 2 kids. They were super naughty but fun?? I supported the wrong team cuz the winning team is the red team which is SUPERBLY hyper team as compared to the Yellow team. Ooopz, I should mention the teams first ryte? Yeah, the teams are Red, Yellow, Green and BLUE!!!! So after the sports day event, there was a SUPER short meeting to discuss the one day event held by the Al-Iman Youth Wing before we head for our lunch sponsored by the mosque. While waiting for food to be served, there was an interviewing session with the teachers in the mosque. So after much interrogation, I found a lot of stuffs about the concept of minahs and matz. Since they are alwayz talking about minahs and matz.
At around 1pm- 5pm, it was so MENDAK cuz I have to wait for 6.45pm to come as there is a Youth Leaders Network sleepover at Al-Iman mosque.So what did I do? I sleep instead of studying for my term test. The reason why I sleep is because I couldnt sleep the night before. Before you guyz think I din read through, you are so wrong. I did read through the notes to get a grasp of what am gonna study and how am I gonna write my notes. I write notes the day before my exams so that the morning before the exams, I can revise. Fortunately for me, this coming one, has a lot of maths rather than theory. If not, I think I am gonna die cuz with one week of not studying for my exams,Itz gonna be mendak!
The sleepover was superbly FUN! Though my close friend who WAS supposed to accompany me back out at the very LAST minute, I did make some new friends. Yeah, we learn about reasons being a youth in the mosque, the responsibilities of being a youth leader and also learn that we need to come out with POWERFUL events that suits the public youth's to make an impact and make them stay or be a youth in the mosque themselves.
At night, we slept for one hour, from 3am-4am. From 12am-3am, we talked about lots of stuffs. As there were no ADULTS taking care of girls unlike the boys,we took the opportunity and took some time out to the nearest 7-11 stall near the mosque. We watched a little of tv and talked about the kind of guyz that we should look for as a companion. We also talked about some religious stuff which I forgot.
I think the boys also have their share of sharing session. I heard it lasted till 4am. Ours ended at 3am cuz some of us was tired and we decided to take a short one hour nap. So there you go, all of us are practically tired when the day ends.
The best thing that came out from this sleepover event makes me reflects me of my responsibility as a muslim youth to the community. Did you guys know that our generation is at risks of being the last generation?? For those who are muslims, read up the signs of doomsday and relate back to what you see now. Just reflect on it, wokayz?? All I know, its getting scarier year by year.
Yeah, I guess thatz it boyz and gerls!!! Just reflect on it. I am not a perfect person...I do make mistakes. We should remind each other of the responsibility that have been undertaken by us.
|8:46 PM|
Wokayz...I shall start listening to FAST music..i mean REALLY FAST to lift this spirit up! I received 2 SAD news today...TWO! So yeah...The worst was the second one ar..I was shattered..Itz ok..Itz only a crush which will go away some day at some point of time..haiz..Fortunately, itz only 14 days since I had a crush on this person..Itz ok. I can live on..Dun worry bout me.. As expected when this afternoon, I was really stumped for words. It really is true. I really cant talk to this person anymore.DARN, DARN AND DARN!!!! WHY!?!?!?! IS THIS NORMAL?? I really hope itz normal. I mean we used to have a lot and lotz of things to talk about till diz morning, I dunnoe what to say to this person. My answers are like DIRECT AND ONE sentence. SHUCKZ AND SHUCKZ!!! WHY!? How I wish it wont end this way?? Gosh! I want it to be the same like the old time, I REALLY DO...Perhapz, itz juz a feeling. Perhaps itz just a dream. It will pass..I will talk to him like normal soon enough..It will pass.. Wokayz..so long as I keep that in touch, I shall and I will talk to like normal tomorrow or perhapz even now? Wokayz..Keep Psyco-ing MYSELF now.. Now2, I have nothing more left to say except How does my new layout look? Ok a not? Give a reply yeah!!
Wokayz.... so the sad news is..
|10:56 PM|
Hello peepz!!! How are you today??? I hope you guyz are doing fine! Again, I am awake in the wee hours in the morning doing blogging and chatting. Isnt that kewl..The best part is of cuz to stay over at the FOOT of Mount Kinabalu, the highest mountain in the South East Asian Region.How cool is that!!!!!! Very!!!!!! So the holiday week is a week WELL SPENT!!!!! So yeah there you go...I make a promise to myself and this time I will make it work! So herez a thing I remembered from Dr Fadhilah(the motivator person) Today should be as good or better than yesterday So! There you go! I should make each day as best as it could! With the motivation posters right in front of me...Take each day at a time for a day will be lost if you dun make full use of it! I will be happier so long as I keep those sucky feelings aside! Yeah, so i still have feelings for that ex of mine but if I keep holding on, I will cry and cry and in the end, I dun gain anything. I should feel happy that I have friends who still care for me! Another beginning of letting go!!! Soon, it will be just a past which I could rely on to learn and get that prince charming of mine till death do us part...
So yeah, I just received news that somebody had a bday event and din invite me. Seriously, I dun feel anything about it cuz I think itz expected. Hahaz...I mean, the signs are clear what. So now, should I wish this person a bdae wish after a month of not talking and not to forget, I SEEM TO FORGET HOW TO TALK TO THIS PERSON! Itz ok, I read the blog and I know itz not referring to me but at the same time, when I read again, seems like referring to me..Whatever..All I know, he have let go of me, PERIOD.
So yeah..actually, thatz not the news im supposed to tell u! Itz juz there to let that person read it...Hahaz..I am mean, what can I say? Hahaz!
The real news is..........I want to reminince the time since Primary Skewl till Now but then, when I just heard the news like a few minutes ago..Itz lost in the air....Hahaz..so there you go! No, I promise will tell you once I have the story lined up..Muz think and THINK how to make it as short as possible..Hahaz..like I ever wrote a small entry! Yeah, I did once..to tell you guyz about ma trip to NZ and Sabah or izzit, the exam period? Hahaz..I dunnoe..
Speaking of trips, I am gonna go visit my sister in SABAH this 6th March!!! Wish me LUCK!!!!!!! As you guyz know or din know, my nephews couldnt make it here cuz my sis's pregnancy cant take any travelling..Haiz..so sad! I was so elated when they wanted to stay over at my place! I hope this trip will be memorable, OF CUZ IT WILL BE! Reason:
If it isnt, therez sumthing wrong with your day..
|12:31 AM|
Whoa!!!!!I am so happy and free right now!!!!!!!Guess what happen!!! Yesterday was the funniest day I have ever had in YEARS!!!! I was laughing and laughing and laughing and wokayz juz repeat the laughing 10000000000 times okey? Hahaz!
So yeah, earlier in the morning was a great experience which I am not going disclose to you guyz...so yeah, thatz it for the morning session..All I know, it was nerve wrecking and hilarious for my thing.
The afternoon session, I went canoeing or issit kayakking. Whatever, started of with meeting the guyz and galz at Woodlands Interchange. Yeah, the guy whom I have a MAJOR crush was there!!! Hez so cute and so handsome, I tell you guyz!!!! Gosh!!! Hez the one which fits like everything in my list. But my best friend, yasmin, told me, you will only get to know the person if you get close to him. He may not be that close to me but I will get to get close to him with the frequent meetings in the mosque. Yeah! Cant wait...but with a career coming up, I wonder...Hmmmmmm.........
So yeah, the kayakking event was the funniest. I was kayakking with Yasmin with she in front and i am at the back. So yeah, the man whom I have a crush on with Husnie(my junior), push our boat to sea. See2!! How happy I was? Very!! So we were off to sea.. Guess what happen?! Few minutes to ponder yeah?
While the rest of the group is very far from us, we were still stuck at the middle of the sea moving around in circle. Hahahz! I was laughing when we started turning and turning for the first 10 mins of the kayakking session!!! Finally, we decided that we should paddle together in unison. And VOILA, we finally move straight with the waves making us move in circles again..Hahahaz!!!
In the middle of our session, we release our stress with SHOUTING!!!!!!!!! Shout our lungs out! That was fun and stress-relieving. Of cuz, by laughing alone helps to release those stress!!! Ryte guyz! And this is just the beginning of me moving on!!! Yeah!!!!
At the end of it all, we ate at Marine Parade food centre. That was fun! I couldnt believe my eyes when I saw almost, ALMOST everyone incl. my crush had at least 2 servings of food! That does not include Desserts! Whoa lau! That was like, WOW! I cant even finish my servings of food. Reason: Stress period = small stomach
WoW!!! By the time I reached home, I was really tired to even start studying for my CPM paper due tomorrow! All the best to all my QS mates!!!! Cya guyz soon!!!!!
|11:20 AM|
Wokayz, as you guyz know, i am crazy..So yeah, this week I am a little bit gone case ar!!! Hahaz!!!!!!!
Rite! One week has passed with a little glitch on tuesday..Ya know it feels like this week is the LONGEST week that I have. Guess the reason? Of cuz, itz the exam period! Ya know, I tot I blogged the V-dae post last week when the fact is I blog it this week. It only seems like yesterday I got attached and broke up with someone. But now, I guess that blog sumhow or another make me let go of the person. So yeah, I feel a little bit of freedom. So there you go...Give myself a chance!
So yeah, this week has been a HELLA OF A WEEK! I have been scrimping all through my notes for my exams and it sux a lot that by friday, today, I have information overload inside my BRAIN that I feel like coughing out vomit from my mouth. I am so gonna run tomorrow to let this stress out...
Literature Period PLEASE......Hahaz :P
This week has been like a war to me. I have survived the war by typing this letters as I write. This war is a matter of whether you make it or you break it. Its a pass for the future of my life. I hope I will win the war. It all depends on how the invaders grade this war.
Understand the paragraph? If you don't understand, its ok. I think of exams as a war. Hahaz!!! Lurve everyone! See, i am going bonkers! Lurve you guyz for making move on..especially to Norhafidah Marican and....Norliana Ahmad!!! You guyz are the people who make me see the light that he is not the only guy in this world. Live life to the fullest they say!
|11:43 PM|
Wellz...the time now is 1.39am on the 14th February 2006..So you guyz must be wondering why am I still up and kicking at this hour when I am supposed to be asleep or at least study for estimating costing due tomorrow,15th February(24hours left and counting)...
Wellz..the reason is probably itz V-dae or Friendship day. Haiz...so what have I been doing for the last 2 years..Wokayz, those 2 years I have a boyfriend but now I am celebrating it as a singleton. I cant believe it but never mind, I have to believe it. I mean, there WAS a reason and a blessings. Those years was great but never o mind, I din do much to make him realised how much i love him... If you were to ask how I know, the reason lies in his blog. I mean, he could mention that..Oh....juz read it urself! The more I think about it, the more frustrated and sad I become. As a girl, I guess thatz a normal reaction. In my mind is a whirl of questions running as I remember each bit of sentence he types. Am I dreaming or am I not? Am I just plain stupid and stubborn to realise the truth?? Why cant I just let go and let him live his life peacefully?? He did, i know he did...haiz...
Haiz...I need someone to just trigger the light to make me concentrate on my studies and not think about it. So far, I found one. Yeah, you guess it right. Hafiz asked me a lot of questions the other day about CT and I realised I dunnoe a single thing! Thus, I took out my notes and study and understand till I can explain to him in DETAIL about the questions that he asked me. So yeah, for a moment there, yesterday nite at around 11pm, I shut my mind from love. I dunnoe why it trigger back today. Guess people around me wishing me valentine's day make me relive the moments of yesteryear...From single to couple to single again......OMG, am I really thinking of last year and the previous year??? Shuckz, I did?? I lost track of time..
I am so over this, I tell you guyz but I just cant help thinking about it. I should let it go. If its meant to be, it will come back. As far as the way I look at it, it will never come back. Itz ok, this is what I called reality. I cant expect all love life to be like in fairy tales. I used to think that way when suddenly the pain is just so hard to bear knowing that someone you love actually.....(fill in the blanks yourself). Yeah....reality hurts. I shall just take it in my stride that everything started of with me and I deserve to get this pain.
Yet again, I shall be strong and stay strong. Itz not for my friends, itz for the best of me. I should and I have to!!!
|1:41 AM|
Hey2!!!!!! Itz ma second post for the day!! Wokayz, if you think we stop at Lavender and go home, You are SO wrong! We went to Paya Lebar to buy some cloth for ourselves. Initially wanted to walk till paya lebar, but because we were rushing for time we took mrt. Fida bought this satin cloth for her brother's engagement while I bought this kain bekung for my sister's future child in Sabah. Wokayz..NEWS please! We saw an old man fall flat to the ground in front of Tanjong Katong Complex! That was scary! I was so emotional that I nearly cried. He was lying side ways flat. There was blood on his right cheek and his nose. We believe he trip and fall from the ground. Luckily, there was this good hearted man to help him. We stayed for a short while when we decided that young man, could handle the old man. Yeah, he called the ambulance for help. We(the passers-by who saw he fall) were scared cuz I think when he first fell down, he had a concussion. He was like couldnt talk, nor bring himself up. Haiz..that was the main event and the first encounter with a situation liddat. Yeah, how bout tat?? A lot and lot of news if you walk around Singapore. Did you know that you have to be a tourist in Singapore to enjoy the small little things that makes Singapore an interesting place to be. Yeah, the pain may be gone but I shall be strong to accept fate. Thanx to all ma friends who cheers me up when I am in pain. I will do the same to you guyz cuz u guyz are the true friends of mine. God have interesting ways to make you see the light. Bubbye for now..I guess if I have news like this, I will post again! Till then, cya around soon!!!!
Wo..kayz! So in the last paragraph in the last post(if u bother to read), i mention i was a bit sad and heartbroken. Again, ma close friends who knows about the story will cheer me up. Thatz why I turn to them for solitude. They will mend the heart but they wont make it go away. I will try my bery best that whatever happens has a reason. Fortunately, these group of close friends will be my colleagues soon come 3rd April!!!!!
The reason why I wrote a second post is not because of the last paragraph of the last post.
Rather, itz about me walking again from Dover MRT to Lavender MRT. Isnt it an improvement from Bugis?? Wokayz, we took short cuts again. We took another route which is much, MUCH nearer than the previous week. The diff is we pass thru Chinatown and Clarke Quay instead of following the MRT line of going thru Tanjong Pagar to get to City Hall MRT station. Itz much more nearer. Seriously, you should walk with us and go crazy. In fact, I think the walk helps to ease the pain that I felt earlier this morning. All I know, my instincts was correct right from 25th June 2004. OF COURSE, I din trust my instincts then. I should but never mind. Once done, it cannot be undone.
This walk is much, MUCH interesting than the previous one. Summary please:-
|11:37 PM|
Hello everyone!
Wokayz, exams are like less than a week! I am superbly stressed cuz I haven study a thing yet?? So much for studying early! Hahz! Haiz...I am stressed..If only therez ma stressed buster, CHOCOLATES,love, VANILLA and happy people surrounding me?
Wo...kayz..so the previous post state that I still haven gotten over him BUT fret not, with the exams like around the corner, WHICH I like very the much( THANK YOU GOD!) to let me burn down the sorrow by keeping me busy, busy and BUSY with my mugging for exams. I need as much As and Bs for this exams. I will try my best and get at least 70% for each and every paper to pull the grade up!!! I have done pretty badly for some of my modules which SUX a lot. Reason for the results is of cuz, FYP! Darn FYP! Bcuz of that, I lost my concentration to study! Lucky me, itz over now!!
Gez who I saw today at FC3 just now?I saw Lincoln~~~ Lincoln is the one who join this Star Idol which is shown on CH8 tonite at 8pm. Watch him act and vote for him! Voting session ends around 10pm I think. All I know, I am voting for him. I dinnoe hez from SP and GOSH, I din vote for him cuz of SP, I vote for him cuz hez cute!!!!!!!!
Ya know, after so long, my little heart of mine keeps saying something that I could not believe. A while ago, before I blog this entry, I read something which kept me thinking, REALLY. I think whatever the little heart say was true after all and I din make a mistake about it. Gosh! I should have trusted it a LONG, LONG time ago!! And to think, I broke it like too many times for not listening to it. Itz ok if you dun understand this part cuz I know what I am saying.
|11:37 AM|
This 2 songs lyric are meant for someone to read..Ok la..itz B..I dunnoe if he still comes to my blog anymore..Happy reading or singing if you know the tune..
Sacrifice by T.a.T.u
Can you tell me, softly
How you'll always haunt me
Can you help me
Hold me
Come to me now, slowly
You caress me, smoothly
Calm my fears and soothe me
Move your hands across me
Take my worries from me
**Chorus**
I will sacrifice
I will sacrifice
All I have in life
To clear my conscience
I will sacrifice
I will sacrifice
All I have in life
Sacrifice, sacrifice
**end of chorus**
Can you feel me, solely
Deeper still and wholly
With your understanding
And your arms around me
Can you help me
Hold me
Whisper to me, softly
Move your hands across me
Take my worries from me
back to chorus
We Shout by T.a.T.u
I will forget my dreams
Nothing is what it seems
I will effect you
I will protect you
From all the crazy schemes
You traded in your wings
For everything freedom brings
You never left me
You never let me
See what this feeling means
Everything that you feel
Is everything that I feel
So when we dream
We shout...
We shout...
You say it's all complex
Passion can pass for less
We never bothered
Telling each other
What we were bound to guess
Will anybody care
We could go anywhere
Going through danger
Talking to strangers
Will there be someone there
Everything that you feel
Is everything that I feel
So when we dream
We shout...4 x
I dunnoe why when I listen to Tatu songs I became very emotional. Perhaps they are telling a story of what I am going thru in their new album. All I know, I din regret buying their cd!
Whenever I listen to their songs, there will only be one person in my mind. All I know, therez no turning back to the past coz itz not worth it. I tried to move on but I cant. I turn to my friends for solitude to make me forget the pain thats inside of me. How I wish, they could make it go away.... Perhapz, this is what they say the pain of love or perhaps I am just plain stubborn of the fact that he and I are not going to be together no matter how hard we try.*sobs, sobs*
Haiz...the reason why I wrote this at the end of the whole lyrics is because I find that only a minority will scroll to the end....will he read this part? Only HE knows.........
|11:22 PM|
Today markz the greatest outing before EXAMINATIONS!!! So in one week's time is the exam? I dont care at all...All I know, I am gonna start mugging cum weekend! Itz the exams! So yeah, thatz basically the stuff that we the 5 girls did...Who are the five girls, they are, Fidah, Sharina, Wirda, Farah and me! Farah left us for her friends when we were slacking at Takashimaya. Happening ryte? I shant tell you what really happen but please go to this website for a review of Fun with Dick and Jane. ---->http://shanurda85.multiply.com/reviews Happy studying peepz or shud I say Happy Mugging for the Exams for all the SP students and all students who are taking their exams this month!!!!!!!!!!! May we all graduate with FLYING COLOURS to all the graduates of Polytechnic Students!!!!!
Today's itenary:
|11:28 PM|