Living Life Happily Ever After

Composing Music

2010-06-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

What the heck!!!! Creating music is easy but writing it........OMG! Needs a lot of patience!!!!!!

DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish have a lot of patience!!!!!!!!

The Love Life

2010-06-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

Ok.........

First thing first...........LIKE LIKE does not equates to LIKE LOVE.

Recently, I met this guy who totally fits in the bill..A total STRANGER! No relations to any of my friends. Why I said he fits in the bill?

Criteria Sheet :-

Doesnt Smoke (A must Criteria)
Malay
Fair
Is into Music (My mentor for the year)
Likes anything japanese (Same interest)
Friendly

So yeah...the only thing that Im not sure is whether he is still a Muslim? A bit of wonders there...Hopefully is la eh...cuz he still understands the meaning of Insya'allah (If Allah s.w.t. wills it to be)

Then again, first he is vegetarian - the reason he gave was quite weird to me arhz...den he is into Buddhism. Link between two - Most Buddhist are vegetarian. Zen or not...it's still wrong. Today, when I saw him play, I tot I saw a cross necklace. As far as I am concerned, most of my Malay Muslim friends do not agree with me, once u wear clothes or anything for that matter associated with a cross, you are indirectly supporting Christians. (Point to note : I am not being a religion racist or what). There was a story that the land did not accept a Muslim body just because that teenager wears something cross at the time of his death and he have to do a burial as a christian. (Astaghfirullahaladzim). Can you imagine how devastated the parents was? I prayed hard that I would die as a true Muslim and not any other religion. Amin.

Ok, point to note...I am not supposed to judge him but I cant help it. Why you may ask? Reason : I just went to this seminar bout the number of Malays out there who lacks the religious knowledge i.e. Islam. They are at risk of being murtad. (Astaghfirullahaladzim) Seriously, I truly prayed inside that he is still a true Muslim at heart and not to change to any other religion. Keimanan itu penting.

So yeah.....now I am contemplating....seriously, I think HE is really testing me. I got make a wish, its either Chinese or Ustaz as a husband. This guy comes along. He is a Muslim but his lifestyle is not as a Muslim. Its either I bring him back to the correct path or let him be. Anyways, he was never close to me. He is just a mentor to mentee. Moreover, we just met a few months ago.

If I let him be...would I be in a difficult situation? Leaving a fellow Muslim not understanding his own religion? Arghz!!!! Maybe I should see how the relationship goes first. Cuz Right now...He is so not interested in me!

Just wait and see first........For now....Chase that dream - Be a composer.

First off - Tune that Piano! - $100 per trip

2010-06-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

Itz been a while since I last updated this blog of mine................

Hmmmz......hopez nobody reads this

Niways.............my birthday is coming soon. I wonder how does it feel to be 25.......

Being 24.......was ok.......
being 25????????? Itz scary just to think about it. ARGH!!!!!!!

How I wish I wun grow old!!!!!!!!

ARGH~~~

Ok, I shall leave it to fate for now........

Retreat

2010-05-13T23:00:00.002+08:00

Hi Peepz!!!!

Exams finally over!!!!!! I really cant wait to begin the brand new future laying ahead of me. Den again, I have already set the future which is continue working with the Mosque and as a Quantity Surveyor.

I went for the retreat last weekend at Batam. HOW I WISHED I OPEN UP THIS MOUTH TO TALK TO HIM!

He was just like sitting next to me and what did I talk to him "U become a leader arh...u show great leadership skills, which he replied...suma ur fault", "Ask bro S.....to be ur asst", "hows ur camera","how much did u pay for the game in ur phone", "oh yeah, I throw the cover away"

WHAT THE FISH!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY HATED MYSELF FOR THAT! HE WAS LITERALLY SITTING NEXT TO ME THE WHOLE DAY OF SATURDAY AND I COULDNT EVEN OPEN MY MOUTH!

Sorry for the caps...was really frustrated for not talking to him more during that retreat. So much for getting myself noticed by him. The best part : I DIN SLEEP THE NIGHT BEFORE AND WAS TOO SLEEPY TO CONCENTRATE!

I was named SLEEPING QUEEN. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When will I have that kind of chance again? 0.999999999999% CHANCE.

The next event is RYC / CPR whichever cums first. He going vietnam and Gunung Ledang, I cant follow due to work commitment. Haiz..........................................

I'm so pathetic :( Tell me that again...pathetic.

During the retreat, I am so gonna have a new post.....moving forward...they have entrusted me to join the woman's wing of NWMC. So, apart from the youth, I have to be involved in the woman's wing. Ta da!!! At least, being in the woman's wing, Im a participant rather than a committee member. I loike!

Back to the youths, I really dunnoe if I can still do it. If he can be the mosque executive and ydo at his age (i calculated, around 27-32), I think I can do it too!

I repeat, Im so pathetic :( only now I realised how I push my luck away..............

Latest Updates!!!!

2010-03-27T22:50:00.002+08:00

Woo!!!! Woo!!!!

Doesnt it seem like a year I haven update?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!

First things first, Sorry for the LONG,LONG Time never update....Been lazy and bz at the same time or is it cuz I got nuthing to say except conc on study and work 24/7??

Hmmmzzzz........

All I know...my life is so remote control..i can even work with my eyes closed as its so remote!!!!

Haiz...wonder when will Life be different.....

Haiz, haiz...

All I know the moment skewl is over, Im gonna go back to the life I once missed!!!

1. Watch TV like nobody business on weekends esp all the JAP movies

2. Sleep (my fav pastime) on all my free time (BORING!)

3. Focus on the youths at the mosque (so guys, r u listening??!?!?!?!? Im cuming back!!!)

4. Read english storybooks like therez no tomorrow to improvise on that rusty english of mine.

5. Go on a vacation without any financial worries!!!!

6. Go out and have fun with friends!!!!!!

7, Find myself a boyfriend and get married, insya'allah...(fate plays a part here)

So yeah..thatz the only update...till I finish skewl orites in a few months time!!!!

Wish me luck people....final exams cuming soon!!!!

Wish

2009-03-06T00:21:00.002+08:00

I wish I was a star!!!!!

I want LOVE!!!!!!

LIKE REAL LOVE!!!!!

Haiz....like it will happen

Niwayz...itz been a while...

No more lunch dates - ok

I still lurve him!! Point to self : He doesnt give a damn.

Haiz....

If only....IF ONLY I were a boy...

Haiz..............

Itz been a while..but itz ok..whu cares bout him...

I think I have lost weight cuz I can feel my hand is shrinking in size...used to be a bit chubby..now like left with bones...chia lat..dunnoe if itz a good thing or not...

haiz...Mayb i shud eat more..mayb i shudnt :)

itz all in the mind..

Lately...whenever Im stressed out, I tend to vomit out watever I eaten during lunch..Itz torturous...argh!!! YELPZ for HELP!!!

Need juz one person to hear her!!!! But is there???? None!

Haiz.....

Sharifah is fainting....fainting....

Haiz....

If only he gives a damn bout it....

We are juz normal friends...JUZ NORMAL...wish it could go beyond that :)

Loyalty / Honesty / Patience - will be juz tat :)

But to be with him you need extra patient! Cuz therez like DOZENS of woman who will try to snatch him from you.

No matter what....I AM THE RULE....not the EXCEPTION.

I juz pity him having so many girls liking him. If they are like me, I would presume, they will prefer him being single. Ahakz..

Singles....

Whatz so good bout being single??

Can date anyone, literally anyone and you won't get hurt and u are not even hurting anybody. Yeah..tatz what singles meant.

So hez being single...so he play games with girls cuz he is like girl. Hez a girl inside. Definite :)

The more I know him, the more I find him interesting, the more I want him BUT the girls surrounding him is ENORMOUS!!!!! I cant!! I cant!!! My patience is not that high!! Other things can, but not LOVE...

yEAH....

Dunnoe why everyone in the company say I superb patient....

I am not...seriously...I am not.....

Friendship

2009-02-01T17:46:00.003+08:00

Hey Peepz!!!!

Been watching this Japanese series show - Nobota Wo Produce - Makeover of a wild pig.. - A MUZ WATCH!!!!

Niwayz...this show is bout friendship - a muz watch...

So yeah...since I watch this show...it makes me think. No matter how many friends you have, having as little as 1 friend...juz one friend is enough. You do not need 100 friends or 1000000 friends for that matter. All you need is a friend.

A friend to whom you can go to. A friend to whom you can share all your sorrows with, all your happiness with, all your critiques and the what not. If there is no friend in your life, you will be lonely.

I have decided. During my holiday in KL, I have decided. I juz realised sumthing. If I can't live with the banker having so many girls around him, I might as well treat him as my best buddy. Cuz I will never, NEVER survive the love if I have competition. I tend to give up easily especially in love. Niwayz, he said hez not ready to be commited. A friend told me that guyz who said this , dun take it literally. Cuz it simply means he wun go far with you. Juz friends. No matter how much hope he gave you, dun believe it. Cuz once the word of "not ready" cums about, he already make his point. Its like the softer way of saying " You are not the one for me". You know, that sounds hurtful, aint it?

So yeah, deciding him to be my best buddy is not as easy it may be cuz itz hard. Ive fall hard already. How I wish I can stop this feeling from growing. He knew but he juz laugh it out. I cant do anything also other than let him be. How I wish I have known it earlier.....niwayz...the intention was to be friends.

Here I am going to tell the history of our friendship - (cant reveal his name yet cuz hez IT savvy)

1 - Car couldnt start at one of the mosque's event in 2007,met him and his friends thru one of the sisters. Was emo - cuz first time car couldnt start. Was being introduced one by one at Al-Azhar. His friends and him. He was trying his best to cheer me up. Look at him. Notice he looks exactly like my Architect, Steve. Feelings already evolving to get to know him better. At the time, since feel so emo and the situation doesnt gel, din notice the feeling.

2 - A few months past by, CNY 2008, he did a treat to his buddy. Din go cuz got sumthing but heard, he was asking bout me(dunnoe if its true)

3 - A few months went by again, chat at MIRC in the hope of seeing him. Got his MIRC id and chatted with him till he gave his MSN. Due to this, I stopped chatting at MIRC. Den started our convo in MSN. Got his number in MSN.

4 - After that, started to sms each other frequently...calling me " sayang, sweet, dear" gives me the chill...told him i dun like it....but actually i do cuz i dunnoe...the feeling is juz nice.

5 - Sumthing happen to my friend who introduce me to him. She create this problem of getting into a relationship with a married man. And I was forced into it by him. Din want to get involved. Really hated him by doing this to me. Now, me and my friend are not in talking terms due to this problem of hers (still ongoing). First time talking to him though the timing wasnt exactly perfect -ended at 3am in the morning. from 2am i think.

6 - Den stop talking to him for a few months, den my friendship got into trouble. I was stucked in a love triangle between 3 friends of mine. Ask him for help by meeting up with him. -First contact with him. This first contact after a year went by.......was like an electricity surging......cuz after that contact.......I was like liking him more. Yeah, though it was a love triangle, I never wanted the guy to be mine cuz hez younger than me and a little to inmature. When this guy came by, and the way our first contact. Fuh! Things he did in our first contact :-
1- tie my blouse tie for me
2 - pay for my food
3 - palm reading
4 - telling me how pretty i actually was
5 - how i can be more pretty if i tried harder

the feeling juz surges

7 - sms again den ask for office email....den started to chat with him at work thru office email. Had lunch dates with him frequently

8 - Had a movie date with him and we confess our feelings

9 - Due to my stupidity, told my friends bout it and he tried to avoid me. (Think still is???) Den the lunch date became to once a week or once in a fortnight. From 2 times a week to once a fortnight was torture to me......he din noe obviously....I was missing him ald by now. He made me fall for him ald. By now, I know I had fallen into the Limerance / Love. I dunnoe. I have counted the days when I will be meeting him next. After numerous rejection, the hope of seeing him again became hopeless. I din hope anymore. If have, have. If dun have, den dun have. Frustrated, and told him off.

10 - Now, itz like hanging. I know I am still missing him cuz no email for the past 2 days, i.e. thursday n friday. Dreaming bout him practically everyday.

Best part : the dream was us being a couple. Each day was a story on its own. In reality, it was not even close to being a couple. Den I have to stop dreaming bout him, I had to force myself to tell myself, that if I were to continue on, I will suffer the most. Thus, the decision made was to be his best buddy. I dun want to be his girlfriend or his lover. Reason would be most probably be because of the following : -

1 - Tie him down from his friends cuz I cant live with the girls surrounding him
2 - need him to console my feeling every now and then which will be super tiring to him cuz my ex told me so
3 - need him to motivate me every now and then when I am down which again will be super tiring on him

All the above is the responsibility which I cant give him. I have disqualified myself. To be in love is not bout him sacrificing for you. Its about sharing. Both parties must come to a compromise. Both parties must be willing to share. Both parties must understand each other. Both parties must know what is needed of them.

If I were to harbour these thoughts, he would be at the losing end cuz he will be giving all the way. I cant give him anything cuz I myself lacks the love for myself. If I have found the love for myself, shall I find the one. Most of all, I want the one I love be my best friend forever. Cuz thatz what love is about in the end.

Best Friend.

Love is about sharing and being true to yourself.

Dun get me wrong if you say Im contradicting myself. He cant be the one for now...cuz his girl friends are juz too many for me to endure. N knowing that some of them might share the same feelings I had for him juz gave me the chills. I might as well give up now than let myself getting tortured more.

However, if by the turn of fate, he is the one for me, then I shall accept with an open heart. For now, I shall treat him as a best buddy with a pain in the heart which hopefully will go away soon.

A week has passed

2009-01-19T23:40:00.003+08:00

A week has passed yet again....so far this week is better than the last - keeping the pace with handling 2 projects (closing in Final Account) - wish me luck ;)

Love life - haiz...itz juz tat obvious that the feeling doesnt reciprocate...But I shall live strong cuz the intention was to be friends than losing him forever.

Niwayz, Im going KL, hez going Philippines for hols.....yeah..it all makes up...I guess driving to KL will at least help me cure the broken heart (is it). I dunnoe...I juz have to live it up.

Shall not let my parents / family finds out how hard it is to deal with the problem of life I am facing. I cant go to my friends also cuz they themselves have problems of their own. I shall live strong. To HIM, I shall find solace and peace.

So far, if I keep the pace I am handling right now...4 hours of Poshgrove and another 4 hours of Sea View and another 3 hours of OT for either pj, I guess I can do it. I just have to do it. Think hard and move on...4 months - 1 month (january) = 3 more months to suffer. Itz gonna end soon. I guess thats the only motivation I have for myself..the faster these 2 pj is cleared, I can get a new pj. Hopefully, another condo pj...dun want any other pj...juz condo..at least I noe roughly what to do. ;)

Life is fair. Definitely Fair...whoever said its not fair, doesnt have faith in themselves ;)

Love......

2009-01-13T00:42:00.002+08:00

To you, my secret lover.....

What is love????

If love means thinking of you every minute of the day, then I believe I am in love with you

If love means looking through your facebook / friendster and see the comments made by this girl, and getting sad over it, then I am in love with you....

If love means getting jealous knowing that there are girls who are head over heels over you, then I am in love with you

If love means smiling at your msgs and laughing at your lame jokes, then I am in love with you

If love means trying to get you to notice me, then I am in love with you

If love means counting for the next time to meet you, then I am in love with you

If love means holding back the feelings and rather be friends than losing you forever, then I am in love with you

When will you ever notice that whatever I did is because I love you so. I just wish you knew...but I'd rather be friends cuz I dun want to lose you....

I miss you so....I really miss you...wish you knew how deep I fall.....but I know you dun want to be committed thus I try not to fall...but how to stop this feelings from growing...you planted the seed and its now growing...growing beyond my control...

though i went out with other guys...they cant be compared to you...you are the greatest so far...beating them all out...

why??? why sweet? Why??? why must you crawl into my heart and makes me feel this way...

Now, I dun even know if what I am feeling is mutual. I hate the feelings that I am feeling now cuz itz so uncertain. Argh!!! Love you so much!!!!

Tanx blogger...now I dunnoe if he ever gonna reads this...

New Year

2009-01-01T17:44:00.002+08:00

Itz the new year and here I am making new year resolutions again....

2008 has got to be the worst year of my life!

1 - all my resolutions for 2008 din even make the mark :(

2 - had to juggle 3 things...going to quit being MMB for the cuming 2009 to concentrate more on school and work

3 - Boys avoiding / rejecting me being their friend??? scary

the best event for 2008 has got to be : -

1 - family life is stable with me communicating with everyone

2 - get back with all my old friends, Aishah and Syazwani and Emilia and Liana (whu juz got married in 2008)

3 - manage to get a makeover of myself and I became more confident :) see all the photos being uploaded at Facebook / Friendster

Yeah...for 2009,

1 - If i get out of Seaview and Poshgrove alive, I shall be grateful!

2 - Get a good boyfriend at least (hope hez the one..the banker but den again, im juz another girl whoz attracted to his magical charm)

3 - Do better in skewl

4 - To be a happier person n not be sad like in 2008

5 - To save up money

My birthday wish for this year though in June

I wish I can get a wallet for my birthday...decided not to buy any wallet till then...no money already

Life

2008-12-06T01:26:00.003+08:00

This week have got to be the Worst...Not so bad lah...cuz i got a date in between the week.

Yeah....

Had a bad week both at work and mosque....lucky......Wan Shah came to the rescue!!!!!

No lar...hez juz a colleague asking to go shopping with him...ask 3 girls to tag along but end up, only me n him ajerr....haiz...but it was kewl nevertheless...

Happy moments

- became my personal fashion consultant :) - needed one - hates to see me wears black

- watch movie - 4 christmases - Nice movie - a must watch

- go home together - talked bout the show....but i like the feeling inside the cinema cuz he nearly wanted to lend to his shirt to me when i said i was cold (i tink it was or juz testing the coldness of the cinema, think itz this one). but yeah...i ask him and he said nuthin....so therez only 2 reasons i can think why he took off his buttons...think of the good..think of the good....

Nice kan, Nice kan....den therez another date - to buy christmas gift for team's christmas exchange!!!! Cant wait man!!!! He ask me and i said go anywhere ar...and he said...letz go shopping together...fuh!!! First time, first time a guy asking me out!!!!!!! first time in 2.5 years...hahaz...

Sad moments

- found out that sum ppl is unhappy with my work at the mosque and has been talking behind my back - lucky therez another wan (bro ridhwan) to back me up - thanx wan (tat was touching) - niwayz...not continuing my term next year cuz i want to quit due to the fact that ive been given a bad name - why should i cont??, correct a not....

- found out that the guy whom i tot likes me, being paranoid after getting hit 3 times....mayb he does have lah eh...but then...if itz only me who is making the sparks happen....itz going to be tiring for me and i decided perhaps...im going to take a step back...knowing that I ve been tagging along too much....making the impression that im throwing myself at him....so yeah, taking a step back....dunnoe it can happen anot...will seriously depends on my determination to be independent :)

So yeah, thatz the only update for me to you....tanx wan shah for making this week a memorable one!!!!!

Life Like This

2008-12-02T01:18:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!

SOMETIMES RYTE...I JUST REALISED SOMETHING YA KNOW THAT MAKES ME THINKING.....

I guess I know what the Bomoh meant by there are guys who liked me but dare not ask me. This includes the banker. Itz because they know I am tight and cant take any more stress. No wonder.....

Haiz...seriously, I do get the feeling that the guy liked me but when I ask...out of 5, maybe 1 would answer yes..

The best would be this banker lor....He even asked me if im attached, how do i survive?? Guess thatz why hez avoiding me (or so I thought). But never O mind...avoiding me or not, like i care liddat yeah..Ive been going to the flow...if u msg, ill msg u back. If u dun, den ok lor...

so far...ive been doing great..now then i know why i have so many heartbreaks in this year alone....haiz..they know...so yeah, whatever lah...

I wish I was born free!!!!!!!

Haiz....

Happy shortlived

2008-11-23T20:41:00.003+08:00

Hehehez.....

Itz been a stress week for me!!!!

Niwayz...itz gonna get worst by the day and I feel like quitting already...argh!!!!!!!

Niwayz...the feeling I have right now is like topsy turvy...having feelings for sumone whu doesnt share that feeling is worst...but never o mind...itz only a month since I last had a last heart break so having another one is ok. One after the other.....SIANNESS......

I shall be strong...wouldnt hurt anywayz....

Haiz...

met with all my friends and I cant wait to meet up with them agaian...

The mosque...give the juniors a BRAINWASH and they accepted it...One more month n one week to go guyz....Give it all your best!!!!!

Sunday

2008-11-16T21:56:00.002+08:00

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT AGAIN!!!!!!!

WORK basically settled....

SKEWL is having holidays....

Mosque.........PROBLEM!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHEN WILL THIS EVER ENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aiyah...I juz wants peace...but so far...after one thing..another pops up...like it never ends......

ARGH!!!!!!!! I WISH I HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE!!!!

But itz ok...PEOPLE SAY I CAN DO IT!!!!!!

IF THEY SAY I CAN, IT MEANS I CAN!!!!!!!!

I CAN DO IT!!!!I CAN!!!!! I HAVE TO BELIEVE IN MYSELF!!!! I HAVE TOO!!!!

ITZ HARD!!! I FEEL LIKE DYING!!!!!

And...yeah...

Thankz bro for being very understanding....now that i know u like me, i like you...guess the feeling is mutual. We agreed to stay as friends cuz I am not ready and so are you. I am afraid to like you cuz the situation I am facing right now is not suitable. I dun want to be a burden to anyone. I juz want a close friend whom I can talk to all my problems. * Din tell him that when he asked why I am afraid *

I talked to Aishah today and she totally understands me juz like Fidah understands me. Both of them are like my WORLD....They know what I am facing and they truly understand me..Thanx Galz for being there for me!!!!

Haiz...without friends, who am I? I dunnoe...

For the 11 months...I have been going to the beach every other week to release stress and I finally knew why...I have so many things on my mind...Haiz...I want to be strong!!!

Saw My Favourite Actor!!!!!

2008-11-15T02:21:00.003+08:00

Today is 15th November 2008....in 15 more days...I will be meeting my senior who is away for 2 months..When he cumz back, I have to be prepared to get scolded. Anywho....herez an update from me to you...

No. 1 - I tink I am seeing sumone...I kinda like this guy but im not sure if he likes me a not...most probably not...I mean he got so many girls around him. Today went to Al-azhar....a stupid move cuz the reason i went was because i miss him. There was a reason...when he ask, I answered "Saja ajer" which basically mean juz wanna cum for no apparent reason. Haiz...I wish he knew I liked him a lot(note the word : like) ...the song Missing by Evanescence or Leave Out The Rest by Linkin Park seems to be the in song for me ryte now...will change the video as I type this thing..searching for the song...

No. 2 - Further to above...when I went to Al-Azhar today...guess who I saw?? Guess....but never mind I shall give it to you....I saw ASHMI!!!!! Gosh....second time...second time....the first was two weeks ago when I was with my nephews playing downstairs of my home. VERY HAPPY SIA...Hez like my favourite cute actor sia!!!!! I look into his eyes...I tink he knows I was looking at him cuz we had eye contact juz now. Whoa!!!! So happy!!!!!! I din regret cuming juz now though it felt like I was an outcast. I look around and saw him!!!! I SAW ASHMI FOR THE SECOND TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!IF only he would have notice me which I think he wouldnt la cuz hez an artist. Artist gets so many fans that he muz have got an artist girlfriend minimum...tatz singapore for you..hahz.... But yet again....I MISS ASHMI already!!!!!!!!! HAHAZ :) like he knew who I am......like duh........hahaz...I really do...hopefully, I will have the chance to see him again...

No. 3 - Friendship has been good for me so far...rekindling lost friends...like seriously...I am so very happy..now im on silent war with hafiz...dunnoe wat the heck happen that hez not on talking terms with me. Anywho...already on silent war..watever!!! I was stressed last week and I dun have time to think bout him n our problems..there was a blessing in disguise though...

No. 4 - School have been great. Fortunately for me, this sem my group have been doing a group study which REALLY, REALLY helps me a lot to pass this semester. Who am I without them...Thanks VM, BT!!!! Without the two of you, I dun think I can make it to the next sem. Thanx!!!!!!!!!!!!

No. 5 - what else ar....i dunnoe....

Fasting month

2008-08-31T22:45:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will mark the first day of the fasting month and my resolution for this ramadhan

- at least master Surah Al-Baqarah (The Cow) - the first surah in the Al-Quran

- cleanse my iman of all impurities by praying 5 times a day

- Get acquainted to all friends whoz been long forgotten from Sec skewl, poly and the like

Life

2008-08-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

Hihi!!!

I still feel blue again....

I should be happy!!! HAPPY!!!!!

NIWAYZ, HAD MY FIRST RUN LAST THURSDAY AND NOW MY BODY IS ACHING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS...

Haiz....I have to live life to the fullest...

YES, I just found out I dun have feelings for him. Reason : He was sleeping on my hand, and I dun feel anything. NOTHING AT ALL....

Haiz...

I have to live to the fullest...GIVE MYSELF A CHANCE...

LIKE MY NEW LAYOUT SO MUCH THAT I WISH I HAD DONE MORE....

HAIZ......

LIVE LIVE TO THE FULLEST!!!!

Life

2008-08-03T01:11:00.002+08:00

Haiz....

My ex is leaving for norway soon. Itz kinda weird but never o mind. I finally saw the truth. The fact that making up stories. He finally admitted unknowingly that he just want to break up with me. I guess I am being low self esteem. I just dun want to admit it till now.

Never I realise that being low self esteem got a thing with guys. I am always clingy to guys and gals. Being overly sensitive about certain issues. I guess thatz why I will never get guys to like me.

Why.......

Why am I being this way??

I dont love myself a lot I guess.

I really want to but I guess the sensitive side of me is getting the better of me.

I WANT TO BE STRONG!!!!!

BE INDEPENDENT!!!!

Haiz....if only I stop thinking bad bout myself.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!

Being single for the last 6 months was the best days of my life...and still going strong...

Ok, there was times I feel like I wanna have a boyfriend to be there for me and give me some moral support but I managed it thru. A boyfriend might mean more things. Cuz the boy may break up with me again.

I also juz realised sumting, I have to make the guy chase me...not the other way around. but never mind...till the right guy comes along, I will do what every girl should do. Wait for his call instead of me calling the guy. I mean thats what my ex said. I was too clingy and want to talk to him every other day. Hez happy with his new gf cuz I think she understand him well.

Haiz....I just have to be strong. REALLY be STRONG....

haiz.....argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Being overly stressed over nothing is a cause for worry...cuz itz a sign of low self esteem...... :(

aaaa

2008-07-07T22:49:00.001+08:00

Halo peepz….

I am back….

I have come to a conclusion that all guyz are mostly the same….

I talk a friend of mine about guys and how to know if the guy likes a girl or not. And he mentioned that if a guy like a girl, most guys will usually try to please the girl.

YEAH RIGHT!!!!!

Most of the guys that tries to please me always are interested in my friends. MY FRIENDS! Till today, I still have this perception of guys. Yes, I may be friends with all the guys but I dun trust them fully. Yes, it may seems like I like a lot of guys BUT the guys that I like not necessary like me back. They are more interested in my friends or maybe they think I am too easy going gal.

Haiz…….sumtimes I wish I can be like my friend……….play hard to get. I mean I go out with the guys with no ulterior motive. But I guess that have any hidden agenda. My girlfriends all said I give hope to the guys juz by talking or going out with them. Haiz….I dunnoe…

Niwayz, most guys are the same. I wish there is someone out there who really love me for who I am and not to change me to someone else.

By the way, LIKING someone is not the same as LOVING someone. Love only evolves when there are 2 people in a relationship and is emotionally attached. Thus, the only person whom I love is the first but now, I dunnoe…Therez no more love yet…

Life at 23

2008-06-25T21:47:00.002+08:00

BORING!!!!!!!

I HATE BEING 23!!!!

ARGH!!!! THIS YEAR IS THE MOST BORING YEAR!!!!!!

HAIZ......................

Exams

2008-04-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

Halo Peepz....

It was Only yesterday ( or it seems to be) that I am havin my first class and now IM HAVING MY FIRST EXAMS IN 2 YEARS!!!!

Orh!! HOW COOL!!!!!

HOW STRESS!!!!

Niways, send a Post to the past. It was kinda sad really. Yeah, we may be friends but I seriously think we will be strangers again. I really feel itz better that way. Haiz...dun think he ever reads the blog. With the seldomness of updating the blog, nobody will come and read. THATS THE WHOLE PURPOSE. I think I write sumwhere in the blog saying about rarely updating so that people wun read.

Niwayz.....

Life has been great so far. I am getting FAT, FAT AND FAT due to the fact that I am HAPPY and STRESS!!! So yeah....its not a very good combi. I know....I have to LOSE the EXTRA 6 KILOS which I GAINED in the past 4 MONTHS!!!! 6 KILOS is a lot,a LOT!!!!!!!

Niways....

I wish I had MORE TIME!! Yeah...already had; meant to watch TVs...with MORE time....Means I am back to my hobby of WATCHING TV!!!!!!!!!!!

TV!!!!

TV = FAT!

SERIOUS, if u were to meet me NOW, you will be SHOCKED! Cuz I AM FAT!!!! ASK AROUND!!! CUZ THEY SAY I AM FAT!

SHUCKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I GAINED AND I HAVE TO LOSE!!!!!!!!!!!

Funny though, apparently, ALL the GIRLS around me ARE gaining weight. So it could only mean one thing, UGLY BETTY AND THE LIKE WON AFTER ALL!!!! TV's and the commercial...

FAT is now the IN thing.

Should I lose or be happy with the body Im with and GAIN MORE?????

We will see when we meet.

OF CUZ, U HAVEN SEEN ME IN THE RECENT PHOTOS..CUZ I WILL NOT SHOW IT....

CUZ NOW IM FAT!!!!

HOW FAT YOU MAY ASK...FROM SIZE M to SIZE L to SIZE XL......THATS HOW FAT I AM NOW!!!!!

Life

2008-02-23T13:44:00.003+08:00

OLA Peepz!!!!

As time passes me by, I just realised something which is quite big. I realised that : -

every decision you make will affect someone one way or another
every drastic change in you will affect someone
everything that you do will affect someone.

In all, whatever you or I do will make a difference to someone whether you know or not. Its not a matter of time. There are 2 people in my life who is making a DRASTIC move and it changed the way I am going to look in the future. One has found a girlfriend while the other is switching his job. Either way, it will affect me.

Nevertheless, I will move on. Perhaps me studying for the next 2 and half years has affected someone somehow. Perhaps me working practically 24/7 has affected someone also. I just never know who I will affect. I know those two that I have mentioned will affect me a lot. Others? I don't know. Maybe a little or perhaps I just dont know just yet.

I am very afraid, nervous, scared to face the UNKNOWN. Anything can happen in the future. All I know if I dont succeed what I do now, I wont succeed ever again. I am at the peak of my career I guess or perhaps my career is just starting to kick in. All I know nothing is gonna be the same again. I love being the way I am but perhaps I did change over time. Everybody change. Its juz that we never know what is it about us that change.

Everything is never gonna be the same again.

A long, holidayz

2008-02-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

Halo2…Itz been a while huh?

So yeah, A week has passed…

The CNY week…

I went to sabah in search to meet my Mystery Man, Harris Jaya or whatever his name is but he took a long leave to celebrate CNY.

Harris, a man who never replies to my SMSes….whatever it is, whoever this man is, I would like to meet him no matter what it takes. Itz not a matter of desperation. Mysteries lies deep within him that I would like to explore more about him. Anyways, this guy is quite good looking. A friend he shall be.

Though he went back to his kampong, I did spend my time there quite worth while. Its ok if hez not there. My sis brought me to all the ingenious people places (tempat2 orang asli) such as the Monosopiad Village and also watching movies.

Anyways, shopping in Sabah was great. I bought 1 shoe and 4 bags in total. This is my first trip there without buying any outfits/clothes. Guess the budget is not enough for me to buy new clothings.

Going back was weird. I dunnoe whether its destiny or fate that my mum and I had to miss our flight. We miss the flight and decided to take a flight to KL. Behold and behold, I transit in KL for 4 hours. I went to my aunt’s place in Klang and met up with my 2 nephews. Fuh, wat a fate. It was a blessing in disguise. If I din miss the flight, I dun think I will come to KL at all.

I took the 9pm flight though I can take the 5.30pm flight. Reason being, I want to go my aunt place and meet up with my 2 nephews and my beloved Cousin, Syed Putra. Yeah, the flight was super GREAT. I met with 2 handsome dude!!!!!!! Very the handsome and rich too!!!!!!!! Anywayz, it all ends there. Hope I can meet them again.

Anyways, itz now the time for me to CHIONG all the way till the next long, LONG holiday which is in MAY. Hopefully, I can survive three months of torture! Give me hope and tiredness or not, I shall push myself to the limits!

Till we meet again dude and dudettes, Take care!!!!

New Year Resolutions

2008-01-11T23:27:00.000+08:00

The time has come again for the new year resolutions. To think this year I cant think of any new year resolution. I wonder why....

Anyways, I have to think and think and here are the lists of the new year resolutions 1429 and 2008.

To pray 5 times a day without fail
To memorise the Doa Qunut
To be more pro-active at work as I am now a QS no longer an AQS.
To pass the first year of University life with A, B, C, D's.
To save money at least $100 in the bank every month.

Ok, guess that's all I have for the new year resolutions for this year......

So now, my story for those who have been missing in action for a while.

My guy, SAEPURWANDI has left to Bandung, Indonesia and I am feeling kinda sad. I am trying to be strong and believe that the love that we shared within the 3 months ++ will lasts till the end. Perhaps I din give him 100% of my love but I just hope one day he will come back. Seriously, I am really trying my best to wait for 2.5 years for him. Wait, isnt that what I told all the boys? Ok, the 2.5 years is really the WORST time. So I have to stay single lest I will suffer a lot.

Yeah, I will face the worst HARDSHIPS in 2008 - 2010. Reason being, I have to cope with 3 MAJOR things; ie Work, Mosque and Skewl. Haiz....can I really, REALLY cope?? I have to depend on the wonders of life. I am really thinking and thinking. It drives me crazy I tell you. But nevertheless, Life has to move on. I just have to accept things and move on. If I fail, it just goes to show how bad I am. Anyways, Allah s.w.t. knows I can handle this stress so why think so much? I shall depend on myself and HIM.

With this, I end my conversation with the blog.

SAD

2007-11-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

How much does it take to get promoted??

ADUH!!!! VERY HARD!!!!

I guess I am just not ready to be a PQS.

I could still remember the way he scolded me. HARSH scolding that I nearly took MC the next day. Haiz....anywayz, I think I am going CRAZY and BONKERS.

My motivation level is GETTING LOWER AND LOWER!!! With him scolding me like that, that level just went ZERO. I cried for 3 whole nitez not knowing what will the future become. I just cut my promotion just like that and its gonna get worst. Haiz....If this is the case, I wouldnt want to get promoted. I just want to be an AQS. Forget everything.

I even want to consider quitting....I cant live life anymore. I am dragging myself to work everyday!!!!!! Help is never on the way. NEVER!!!

Haiz....perhaps, I lost that touch again! I lost the roots again! I really should go and start doing my prayers 5 times a day. I want to be free again! I really want to be free of all this MADNESS!!!!!!!!!!

argh!!!ARGH!!!!!!

I just hope someone or something miracle happens to pass me by and let me be free of all this MADNESS!!!!

Okies...bubbyez then...Fuh! That was a good reliever! Finally, its out of me!!!!

Thanks again blogger.......

I hope it will be better. The day, I mean getting better. :)

Critical Period 2

2007-10-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

Hello!!! I am back again!!!

Haiz......I am stressed again! So not me...I am alwayz stress

Anywayz, with HARI Raya around the corner.....Haiz...........

Haiz.......................

I am actually excited at the same time, I dunnoe....it feels different ar diz year.....

Anywayz,

I wish all muslims a happy hari raya this saturday and please forgive me if I made a comments about you peepz in this blog...

Tataz

Life

2007-10-04T05:52:00.001+08:00

Hi all Bloggers again!!!

Sometimes I wonder what do I really want in life. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing enough for myself. Sometimes I wonder if what I am feeling right now is what I want in life.

Argh!!!! Nobody just knows. Its true that when you go back to your religion/ roots, you will become full again. I have been very happy so far and I have to thank Allah S.W.T. for giving me the strength to carry on in times of difficulties.

Seriously, when I look back at the sequence of events last week, I cant help but think, Allah S.W.T. has really helped me a lot. I nearly cried seeing my two bosses pressuring me and not to forget the youth in charge. But, it was successful. Everything went quite smoothly though I thought I can never survive the ordeal.

Truth is, I felt as if I am in a dream whenever I go for meetings at AYC. I just dunnoe why. Perhaps, everyone is so committed to having events. I hope it will be like that forever. I mean, I cant expect it to be like that but hopefully it will carry on till the end of the term. I was quite shocked but I guess Ust Amin step in again to get the committee going. Thanx Ust.

Once again, I am happy with the achievement that I have gone through last week. Without the help of Allah S.W.T., I really don't think I can survive. I kept praying and praying that last week will be a success. I knew it would come. The biggest ordeal will come. Ever since the 1st day of ramadhan, I knew that week will be a hella week for me. Serious, I wanted to confide to both my bosses that I cant cope with the task at hand. I just wanted to cope with one project only but I hold on till the end.

Syukur alhamdulillah terhadap Allah S.W.T. Only that I have to give him. Thank HIM for everything that HE has done for me. All I need to do now is to again start praying 5 times a day which is lacking. The pillars of life, 5 times a day prayers.

Thanks again to Allah S.W.T.

Thanks to all who have helped me go through that ordeal

Thanks!

Syukur

2007-09-30T15:10:00.000+08:00

Hello pEEPZ!!!!

Alhamdulillah Syukur......ALL WENT WELL!!!!!

YEAY!!!!! ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!!!!!!!!

THE EVENT YESTERDAY WENT WELL, MY TENDER INTERVIEW WENT WELL, MY TENDER GOING OUT WENT WELL!!!!!!!!!

YEAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YESSA!!!!!!!!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!!!!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!!!!

TANX TO EVERYONE FOR MAKING YESTERDAY A SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!!

TANX ASYARIE FOR MAKING IT A SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!!

TANX A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAY!!! AND TANX TO MYSELF FOR COMPLETING THE TENDER QUESTIONNAIRE ON TIME!!!! THOUGH U SUBMITTED LATE!!!!!!!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!!!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dunia

2007-09-26T19:00:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM SO FREAKINGLY TIRED!!!!!!!!

Haiz.....juz to make matters worst for myself, I juz got attached. Perhapz, itz not a worse thing cuz he might juz b a blessing in disguise. Helping me to clear this path of road I am leading....

Okla, hez cute and everything....but hez here only for 4 months. So that makes him my boyfriend. 4 months of happiness and the rest leave it to fate. Yeah, I am juz gonna do juz that.

Anywayz, I am freakingly tired cuz I have been slacking for the past few days...and with friday tender interview with Questionnaire halfway done. and friday main tender going out...and with saturday camp. YOU THINK I CAN SURVIVE THIS ORDEAL????

I think I can if I believe..Not to forget, I HAVE PREPARED BASICALLY ZERO for my presentation for the saturday camp. Oh MY GOODNESS!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAIZ....I am really at wits end and dying now. Nobody, NOBODY knows what am I going through right now except myself! I wish I were sick, down with fever but can I take an MC in CRITICAL times like this????

NO!

I cant!

So what else, STAY STRONG and BEING STRONG is the best way to go....

ARGH!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!

Ok, tanx again blog for letting me release my RANTS...

After Searching for the right song

2007-09-18T06:03:00.001+08:00

Hello,

After years of searching for the right song meant for that guy who broke my heart upteenth times, I finally got the song. Timbaland, Forgiven.

Yes, dear, this song is just right for you. You dare say what you said last time after breaking my heart. Gosh! Whatz happening to you?

I HATE YOU.

Yeah, thatz the word juz nice. Yeah, we may be friends but I will never forget the moments you broke my heart time and again. I have been reborn and I will never go through that road again. I will not be stupid enough to break my heart once again. No more recycling.....

How many times have I given you a chance to redeem yourself and you broke my heart? You dare say you did not be a good boyfriend during our time together. Then what was it that makes one a good girlfriend or boyfriend? All I know, I will never be with you again.

I will move on with my life. It took me A YEAR to build up this strength of mine not for you to break it. So, I have decided itz best for us to stay as friends. So, no more talking bout the past. You are who you are and I am who I am. I will never go back! NEVER!!!!

NEVER!!!!!!

I WILL NEVER GO BACK THAT ROAD AGAIN!!!!

ID RATHER MY HEART GETS BROKEN BY ANOTHER GUY THAN THE SAME PERSON ALL OVER AGAIN!!!!

Fuh! Thanks blogger...

Tension Part 2

2007-09-14T13:06:00.000+08:00

Haiz.....Life isn't easy at all.

I am freakingly tired to live each day. Every day is like a challenge to me. Never there was a day when I have no problems cropping up. I am feeling jaded? So not me, I will survive for as long as I can.

With 2 MAJOR things for this ramadhan, I cant help but think, how to survive this hurdle. One major things is about work while the other about the youth at mosque.

Work.

Now, I really have to struggle with 2 projects of which both are at a very critical stage. Marina with the Main Contract Tender while Poshgrove with the V.O.s and the current stone and tiles tender which I am so unsure of.

Youth at Mosque.

I have given the duty to help organise the In House event. I was super shocked of course. I just came for a meeting and help chair the meeting for this In House event and whoa la, I am the head person. Not to forget, I am disappointed with the youths themselves. They tend to run away every now and then with their own life. Hopefully, this In House event will be a success. I SERIOUSLY hope so. I dun even know how to go about it.

With these two Major events going on this month, I cant help myself right now but pray for help and guidance from Allah S.W.T. Seriously, I think at the rate I am going right now, I am SERIOUSLY overworking myself. Weekdays + Weekends morning with work while Weekends evening with the youth. Then, come the question, WHERE IS MY PERSONAL TIME?

Needless to say, or sad to say, I dun have any. Nobody really knows what I am going through right now except Allah S.W.T. I also have a feeling even you guys who read or never read will never understand what am I going through right now.

Stress and PRESSURE

2007-09-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

Hello everybody again, Yet again I am gonna let out my rants again...

Firstly, I am happy to say that I am single again and thanks for not accepting and thanks for saying it out to that person. You know who u r...

Secondly, the reason why i said im happy is because....I am not under pressure. and I will be strong to face this pressure of mine of which I created, CREATED.

I am very the sad with my members of the Youth Circle. VERY THE SAD. Itz getting smaller by the day. The peepz are getting away, AWAY from mosque. I am still finding, FINDING the way to get them back to mosque and not away, AWAY from the mosque.

ARGH!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF ONLY I HAVE THE POWER, THE ABILITY TO COMMUNICATE WITH THE YOUTH. I WILL AND I WILL, I WILL REALLY WILL BRING THE YOUTH AND SPLIT MYSELF INTO 3. ONE FOR FAMILY, ONE FOR WORK AND ONE FOR THE MOSQUE. I KNOW I CAN, IF I BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stressed Part 2

2007-08-31T20:47:00.001+08:00

Serious sey!!!!!!

I am undergoing the worst of the worst right now. And the worst thing again, I have nobody to turn to except to let go of my rants over here!!!!

I am no longer the "future" MMB but im already MMB. CONFIRMED! CAN YOU IMAGINED THAT!? I should feel happy and proud of myself that I am MMB cuz then I can let youths come to the mosque. More YOUTHS to come to the mosque cuz the youths in singapore are already off-course due to the media. THE MEDIA. Sometimes, I do pity these youths as well as pity myself. I used to be like them but what the heck, curiousity will bring you to your downfall. Ikut nafsu memang binasa.

Another thing, RC has just got promoted to be an AD. Seriously, these two bosses knows what I want yet they still ask. I want to be in Holland's Team but because of the project at hand, I want to be in RC's cuz RC knows more about this project. IF, IF ONLY I can be split into two. Anyways, I just have a feeling, I wont live much longer in this world. The feeling is just getting stronger by the day. Haiz...I just hope I have accomplished what HE has set for me before I leave this world for good.

I will really have to TAUBAT before itz really TOOOOO damn late for me. Haiz, doakanla supaya aku mati kerana iman bukan kerana nafsu serakah. I will pray for that cuz I dun want to be dead and end up in hell. Haiz...juz pray...

Stress campur bingit

2007-08-29T13:33:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!!!!

I am back again after one month. Ever wondered why I update this thing like so rarely??? Hmmm....the reason is most probably, I want to let go of my rants over here. Nowhere to go and hide, the blog is most probably the best place to go. So in order to not let people see this blog of mine, I have to rarely update it. Anyways, I tink the blog has seen less people coming in to read.

Who reads the blog anyways?? I dun see any tags to advice or just a simple hello so in conclusion, nobody reads the blog. Hahaz...

Anywayz...where was I??

Hmm...yeah

I have to make a choice. A choice which darn difficult to make. To choose between Poshgrove or Marina. I want to do both but the two bosses juz dun want me to do both. They think I cant handle both. Okiez, perhaps yes. Poshgrove is going thru a lot of NSC tenders in the coming months and I am so tight up. Nobody, NOBODY seems to know the stress that I am facing through. Marina is in the Main Contract Tender Stage, but at least for this one, I am just assisting. Poshgrove is "handling" the project. Obviously, I will choose poshgrove cuz I have technically handling the project so it would be sad to let go of this project. Haiz...if only I can cope with both. I should stretch and prove to both my bosses that I can COPE with 2 projects at the same time.

Yet again, nobody seems to know the stress. I dun even know who to turn to. When I told them my problems regarding work, the advice is to just remain calm. Not forgetting that I am the vice chairperson of youth club and future MMB. Haiz, everything seems to crush on me.

Remember the post that I sent last month, I am being busy but WHY, WHY do I still feel lonely and outcast??? Why do I feel nobody understands me anymore?? I really dunnoe. I am now doing a "motivational" session with myself. Trying to motivate myself as I am now at the bottom of the wheel, feeling so stressed up.

Which comes to the next point....I need that someone, just that someone, to understand how I feel. It need not be a boy..It can be a girl who can just understand me and motivate me so that I wont feel so lonely and outcast. One will do..need not be so many people...

Haiz.......................god has been kind enough to give me some guidance to lead thru this bottom of the wheel. So I shall stay strong and live this moment at the fullest cuz I know therez a fruit at the end of it !!!!

Cinta

2007-07-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

Sumtimes I juz dun get what I want in life...Haiz......life is so BORING!!!!

Haiz...if only life is a bit easier. Haiz....

Anywayz...I really am desperate...SURE AM! If you know what I mean. I cant believe I fall in love with someone who doesnt deserve it. I cant believe that I am scared to fall in love all over again..

I like too many guys but in the end, I get zero..If only I have the courage to say I like you to them. I mean, I end up, losing all of them juz by saying I like them. Most probably, they only treat me not more than a friend. Sometimes I wonder, what do guys want actually in a girl?

I just want to by myself and if being the childish me is gonna chase all guys away. Id rather change myself for the better. But wouldnt that be a hypocrite and crazy? I am not being myself. Rather, I am being someone else to attract guys.

WHY DO GUYZ PREFER THOSE KINDS OF GIRLS??? Sometimes I dunnoe why guys that I like are attached or juz dun want to be attached. Haiz.......I shall wait for the day to comes that I find that special someone.

I just want to get attached and let go of all this feelings inside of me. The feeling of being alone and outcast. Haiz...If only.....IF ONLY......

Life is a roller coaster...why cant I be a busybee and forget that I am single..............ARGH!!!!! I am being busy...but never mind.....Life is a crazy road!!!!!

July

2007-07-17T20:55:00.001+08:00

Its been more than a month since I last updated my blog. Seriously speaking, I really dunnoe what I really want in life. Haiz....Life is super fair actually.........

Anywayz, my june wasnt as what I expected it to be....So no point talking about it....

Haiz....I found out a lot of things which I dont want to know!!!! Argh!!!!!! July is worst....and the best thing is, It juz started......... Haiz...........How long can I last....

They say the best way to cure this to go back to your roots and religion. I guess I have been neglecting my religion and become so workholic that I have become who I am today...feeling restless and as what Faeiz told me the other day, jaded. I shall start to redeem myself and juggle between religion and being a career woman.

I guess thats what I have learnt the most this month. See ya again the next month and I hope the day gets better each day as My day is getting sadder and lonelier by the minute.....

June

2007-06-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

Itz june again and I lurve this month the most!!!!

Guess what, with 3 good things thatz cuming my way this month, I sure will love this month the most..

The first good thing for this month is.........I am going to the APM!!! APM!!! GOT THAT!!! APM!!!APM!!! Hahaz!!! APM HERE I COMES!!!!!!! Well....tomorrow will be the big BIG Day, which is the NITE CYCLING EVENT! But anywayz, APM is bigger...

The next good thing is............my friend from Mekkah is COMING back to town for 3 more months!!!! YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!! Cant wait to meet him!! This time I must meet him and make full use cuz the last hez back in town, I only met him for like a few hours??? Tatz sad and so pathetic. I wish I could meet him for longer hours. Hmmm......yeah i do mish him but....gez shant say much cuz he only treat me as a friend. I should respect that.

The last good thing for the month is...........I AM HAVING A LONG WEEK HOLIDAY FROM ALL THE STRESS!!!!!!!! Yup2...itz the last week of June!! Going to sabah to visit my sis..Gosh, I wonder when will this starts.

And all is well!!!! I juz lurve JUNE!!!! ITZ THE MONTH OF JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LURVE JUNE!!!

Life as A Quantity Surveyor

2007-05-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

Life as a Quantity Surveyor is not as easy as it seems. I mean......haiz..........Itz getting tougher by the day but I shall stay strong and live life to the fullest. Itz the best I can be. I wanted to stay in the job probably because I want to see something. The product will be there for the next 10 or 20 years or perhapz even longer. When I am dead, the building will still be there and I can be proud to say to all my kids and grand-kids and so forth, I was involved in the process of building this project.

As a Quantity Surveyor, itz more than juz printing those emails, doing measurements and so forth. Itz juz more. Therez more than meets the eye as mentioned beforehand. I am so grateful of CHANGING BOSSES. Seriously, this new boss of mine has been so helpful to let me go through each hurdle. Even I am grateful towards RC for being the mentor when I needed it. Who cares if they say I am not suitable, I will make it suitable by changing my way of thinking. This line was meant for me. I never regretted choosing this line. No matter the hard, SUPER long working hours when needed so, the line was challenging yet I pass thru it alive.

As a Quantity Surveyor, I realised NUMBERS is important. For the consultants QS, we have to think for the client's money and their well-being. This is because they employ us to manage their money to give to the contractor so that the contractor won't juz blindly claim for their work done or give high prices for their bid for a building construction. For the contractor's QS, I donnoe cuz I haven work for a contractor yet..so cant give my comment on that. Either way, NUMBERS is important. Each and every number is very important.

Whatever it is, I was so CONSUMED in my life as a Quantity Surveyor that I forget everything that have posed a problem. Yes, I do cry when the problem gets too much but I still came out alive. RC have given me some slack in my work lately, I am very thankful for that, I juz hope he would continue on giving some slack cuz pressure from him makes every of my job goes haywire as proven.

Till the next time, we meet again, cya around soon!!!

Letting Go

2007-03-02T23:09:00.001+08:00

Itz been a while....I have really decided to put my feelings aside for roller coaster...I realised I really did fall in love with him when I felt jealous. He never or will never need to know that I love him. Haiz.......Itz the worst feeling ever..

Yesterday, I cried my hearts out with memories of him and me working together as a team...the way he walks and talks to me. Seriously, if life goes on like this, I can go BONKERS!! So, I have to be strong, STAY strong and strive to let go and dun try to let feelings go deeper yeah.... :)

I really am trying to let this feeling of love go. Itz hurting me more than helping. Itz really hurting more with helping....because I love him, when he scolds me.....it pains me a lot! I cried a lot. The worst is...I DIN EVEN REALISED THAT HE SCOLDED ME LIKE EVERY DAY. Which is why..........I think it hurts more........

It really hurts...

Haiz..........Love is painful..............Why......Why is LOVE is painful........Anyways, herez the list of why I shuld let go:

I should be more professional
He have short change of temper...super fast changing...in one second he can change his weather with no mood
Therez no chance...itz super impossible
Therez no way....

Okie lah......bubbye...........

Life

2007-02-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

Halo peepz.....Seriously....I am falling in love..head over heels over this Roller Coaster!!!! But too bad...WHEN WILL HE SEE ME MORE THAN HIS SISTER!!!!!!!!!!! NEVER MIND, I shall be patient and wait for this feeling to fade which is like gonna be anytime soon if he doesnt react soon...

Anywayz...I had a great HOLIDAYS last Chinese New Year!!! My chinese new year was spent on the beaches of Singapore....Frm saturday till the tuesday!!!

I had fun, FUN AND MORE FUN!!!!!! I met ust amin's brother. Ok ar...tader bezanya cumanya Ust Amin is pretty much more younger looking than his brother. Anywayz, those were the days...Seriously, I dun have much to say man!!!

All I know....if i keep blogging like this, the name that will frequents this blog will be RC cause I am head over heels. Help me!!!!!! Haha...tell me guyz...how to make him realise that I love him in a subtle manner?????????????????

Working Life

2007-02-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

Itz been a while yeah since I last blogged.......Yeah, RC and I are still working together..I admitted to him in a way he wont realise it. Hahaz....

So yeah, as life goes by, there really is nuthing to say already as my life is like working robot. Go to work, sleep and go to work.

I have been leading such a boring life.....so what do I do to keep myself sane?

By joining the Al-Iman youth wing of cuz....

All this sum up to realise my dream of Forgetting the ex...the experience we had together...I was juz, juz been hurt by the question he asked a minute ago....The qn was so hurtful...........How could he ask such a question???? Seriously, I dunnoe.........

Haiz....Life is beautiful if u believe in it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love strikes

2007-01-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

Argh!!!!

WHY OH WHY MUST I KEEP THINKING OF HIM LIKE EVERY MINUTE, SECONDS WHEN HEZ NOT AROUND!!!!

Nak kata dia baik, ok ar, baik juga ar..tapi bila dia marah.....aiyoh!!!!!!!!!!! tak terangkat sey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anywayz, this is about the roller coaster i was telling you about. Yeah, hez super nice...I began to have a crush on him since the first time i met him. Never did I realise that I would be riding the roller coaster with him now. I was like ecstatic but at the same time, stress over riding this roller coaster.

I mean, he never takes notice of me. Not like I want him to but.....He never does. I mean...itz ok. I know who I am, juz an average girl who doesnt like to dress up. Seriously....I dunnoe what are just his type of girl. Is it...a girl who dress up? or a pan-asian kind of girl???? Or is it a girl who is not malay??? I really dunnoe!!!!! All I know, I will never, EVER be in his list.

Seriously, I will never ever be in his list for I am juz average....Haiz......if only he will take notice of me...But he will never lor......Thatz for sure...

All I know I lurve the smell of his perfume minus the smoking smell. (Only in the MORNING). Yeah, thatz it....I guess thatz all for now...a ride in the roller coaster with the roller coaster...Juz make a guess who this roller coaster might be and I will give you a treat...Hahaz...itz pretty simple to guess actually.. :P

Haiz....

2007-01-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

Haiz...I really should stop yeah..browsing his blog. Yet again, itz such a dissapointment reading thru it. Haiz....I read thru everything yet again (mcm takder kejer lain gitu). Haiz......Why oh why must it be this way....I really should move on.

Haiz......Saying is easier said than done. By the end of 2007, I shall make sure, he shall remain as a friend and no more than that. Itz not my fault to fall head over heels for him. It just happens. We were together and then we were not all because of a mistake we make. Anyways, it gotta happen. I am just tired already. Tired of having to let my heart getting broken everytime till I have a phobia of getting attached. What if the guy's parents dun like me???

Anyways, I know myself. I can never get the guy I wish for cuz perhaps the guy have already has that sumone in his mind. Yeah, whoz that sumone? I dunnoe....I really dunnoe. Who am I? An average girl who doesnt know how to dress herself up. Sumone who alwayz mumble and talk super fast. I just can never be the girl of every guy's dream cuz I lurve being myself. I will never upgrade. I did upgrade myself ONLY when I was with the ex. When I broke up, I just dun feel the vibes to dress myself up. To me, a guy should like me for who I am and not for what I am. Which is why, I guess nobody would want me. Haiz.....Life is so miserable.........

Life...why make it so hard.....Maybe I am having the PMS which is why I am feeling down these few days especially to see that maybe I will be the only single in the singles club. Pressured by others. Never mind....Its ok. Soon but maybe not so soon I may be attached. Rather choose the guy properly...Itz easy actually to find the guy....the most is chemistry. I dun care bout looks anymore cuz Looks bring me nowhere. Haiz...If I am pretty, perhaps, I can consider looks. But I am just average looking with big eyes and double eyebags and 1 nose and 1 mouth(nosy) and 2 ears, who would want me? Haiz.......

Life.........is so.................MISERABLE...........
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Today shall be better than tomorrow seems like fading away day by day as I enter into the realm of roller coaster life. I see the roller coaster and I see stressed face on my face. To be dragged to work. I wish I can hold on to the handrails longer. I mean, I cant scold him cuz partly itz my fault. At the worst, I may get scolded back. So Id rather keep quiet and let the rants out to the walls of the toilet or to fidah. Haiz.........

Life is so....................................MISERABLE...............
Get this in my mind and I will feel down the whole week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!! Give me life!!!!! Give me a BREAK! "HAVE A BREAK, HAVE A KIT KAT" hahaz!

Okies peepz......Adios......

Roller Coaster

2007-01-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

Life under stress makes me shivers a LOT!!!!!!

Argh!!! I dunnoe when hez nice, HEZ SUPER NICE. But once hez mean, HEZ SUPER MEAN!!! ARGH!!!! I JUST HATE HIM AT THE SAME TIME, I KINDA LIKE HIM! SO WHATZ NEW?! (You just have to figure out...ok ar...itz the roller coaster when it malfunctions)

Seriously, I have so MUCH, MANY to say but yet again, my brain juz left me with a blank mind!

Anyways, the ex have found or soon to find the replacement while I shall remain single as long as I feel free. Anyways, my heart is still empty. Ok ar..perhaps with the exception of the ex but since hez free, i shall also be free. Anyways, in this line, itz just super damn hard to find that one for a husband or boyfriend who is husband material. Seriously, I have to think about marriage considering my age of 22. Aiyoh!!! 3-5 years left to end the singleton life is so hard considering I am single. Haiz......If only, if only.....ARGH!!!!!!!

Anywayz..

Driving is so DANGEROUS!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!! WHY!!! Sumtimes I can just feel that I might be dead in an accident(Nau'zubillah bin zalik, jauh in aku dari nya) Serious!!!!! Itz super dangerous, itz like putting your life at stake when you are driving!!!!!! Really!!!!! Can you imagine, aiyoh!!! I alwayz forgot to look at the mirror and it nearly caused me accident like COUNTLESS OF TIMES!!!!!! haiz......People HORNING at me like COUNTLESS OF TIMES!!!! Looking at me like I am some kind of criminal, COUNTLESS OF TIMES!!! Haiyoh!!! If not for going to malaysia every week, Id rather take public transport!!!

I could still remember Juraimi asks me why do I buy the car since I always complain of not enough money. My reason was pretty simple... I need the car to bring my mum to malaysia. Itz more of necessity rather than comfort. Cuz I pity my mum having to lose breath everytime we queue up at the checkpoint. So thatz the very reason I have to sacrifice $286 every month for the car. Haiz...my bring home pay is 1100-286: left with 814...Haiz...814 to spend every month...thatz like I have to cut down on splurging on my body shop products which will take up $30 every month and also shopping on clothes and shoes and bags which accumulates to $100 per month...Argh!! A little wonder why I am left with what I have now...NO SAVINGS!!!!! Also, giving my parents $250.... Haiz.....So I need to start saving...thatz my new year resolution!!!

So up next is the new year resolution for the year 2007/ maal hijrah

To do the solat 5 times per day that was stated in the Qur'an (alwayz missed the timing, feelz really bad sey)
To save at least $100 per month
To claim for ot every time i do( alwayz kena lecture by my dearest brother juraimi, weird, he knows that I alwayz claim half time for most of my ot hours)
To get promoted by 2008
To at least handle poshgrove project by my own
To do filing almost everyday so that I wont waste my time filing for 2 hours....Dun care about the DD if he din sign (cuz he never sign one)
To be responsible for my actions instead of relying on others
To control myself when I am stressed esp if I got scolded by Juraimi cuz I remember the other time he did, I was like ON THE VERGE to cry!!!!!! Den he can still talk to me, seriously, when he did, my tears was already ON THE VERGE to drop from my eyes!!! I was super SHIVERING lor!!!! It was my mistake...
Like last year, I never learnt my lesson which is................TO BE MORE VIGILANT WHEN DOING MY WORK!!!!!!!!!! TO FOCUS!!!!! TO TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY FOR WHATEVER JOB THAT WAS GIVEN!!! (sumtimes the simplest thing is the most important task eg. filing of items and stamping original signed to drawings and contract documentation, etc...)
To stop sighing
To stop browsing thru the ex's blog and get myself being sad all over juz becuz he has moved on and I haven.
To be positive ALWAYZ!!!!!!

Whoa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Thatz quite a list and I am still adding more?!?!?!?!?! Okok....I tink if I list everything down, it will never end..So I guess I have make my statement...

Happy new year everyone(not too late for muslims but too late for the rest of the races)

Passing My TP

2006-12-13T13:40:00.000+08:00

Hello peepz of blogspot!

Okiez...itz been a while since I last blogged yeah..I have 15mins to blog this entry cuz I am using the com at work. Reason being:-

My adapter for my Lappie spoilt on me!!! Argh!!!! So damn frustated...

Anywayz....after giving a short lecture on the hacker, I realised (perhaps itz too early) that he had stopped stalking me.(is that the right word? stalking?) So yeah, thats a relief. I just hope he cant figure out the password for my other accounts. It would be like a nightmare for me.

Okiez, I have been meaning to tell you guys this like a few weeks ago but I JUST couldnt cuz the com at home was spoilt!!! Another ARGH!!!!

OKies....the good news is: -

I HAVE A CAR LICENCE!!!! I PASSED WITH 14 POINTS LAST MONDAY, 4TH DECEMBER 2006. YEAYNESS!!!!!

I AM GOING TO HAVE A CAR (KIA PICANTO) THIS COMING CHRISTMAS!!! (isnt it like a christmas present that santa got to give?) Yeayness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The bad news is

I have to pay for my car which costs me $286 per month and also I can only drive it on off-peak hours mainly 7pm-7am for weekdays and 3pm-7am the following monday for weekends. Isnt that sad?? Boohoohoo....Itz ok..the point is...HARI RAYA THIS YEAR, I AM SO GONNA SPENT IT IN MALAYSIA WITH THE CAR!!! Yeah, therez hari raya haji..remember muslim people? I am so gonna spent it alone with my dad (if hez not working). It will be juz like the year b4 where I spent my christmas alone at home (remember peepz????) Anyways, this year is just getting better!!!!

- Break-

Haiz...I shall stop thinking about this new senior of mine. I guess its normal to feel that way since we are working together. Anyways, he treats me as his sister so it will not happen. So yeah...I have 4 mins left.

So adios peepz....

The Hacker Strikes Again!!!!

2006-12-01T20:16:00.001+08:00

For a moment I thought he had gone far, far away but all of a sudden, he attacked me again!!! I shall remain calm....AS CALM AS POSSIBLE!!!!!

So yeah, this week I took leave. Behold and BEHOLD!!!!!

My leave was spent holidaying as a TOURIST in Singapore. Whoever who said Singapore has no life and boring are darn boring people. Even clubbing is not considered as tourists. I dunnoe, sumtimes we have to live like a tourist to enjoy the country to the fullest!!!

I went to Sentosa Island and behold! Therez so much things to see!! I would loved to spend the next trip in Sentosa with my loved one. Only the both of us!!!! Whoa...that would be SO romantic. Watching the sunlight from the merlion?? WOW!!!!! Another romantic moment....Whoa...Sadly, I do not have a boyfriend or a special someone. Haiz..I do like this someone whom I met recently, but seriously, I dunnoe if he feels the same way as me. I guess we just have to remain as friends for now. I aint gonna say my feelings out to him. I guess he have to read this blog to know. Hmmm.....I wonder if he knows its him. I mean, therez so many guys out there who knows this blog. So....just guess yourself..okie guyz??? From what I know, you, Mr B are not an option cuz you told me to move on!

Yesterday, I went to the snow city and the science centre. It was GREAT!!! Therez only one word for it. GREAT!!! It was very cold!!!! I guess itz really snow inside!!! The slide was beautiful!!!! It was great!!! I wish I have a scanner then I can scan the picture inside!!!! I juz remember I can use the company scanner!!!! But I have to do it at night so as not to get Caught!

Anywayz, I love the City! Therez so much things to explore yet people say therez nothing much cuz it situated all over the place!!! So you juz have to go places....Dun forget about the old houses I told you about when I was walking from Dover MRT to Singapore Expo!!!

You really have to go places in Singapore!!! Till we meet again, Take Care!!!!!

2006-11-16T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hello peepz again!!!

I am so fortunate that my blog is not being hacked. Alhamdulillah...

Yeah...Due to the hacker, I forgot to tell you guys one thing new thats been happening to me!!!

I think I may like this guy. But its really too early to tell cuz he and I are just friends for now. I hope he din read this blog cuz I would be embarrased. So will he. Ryte sir? Hahaz...

Another thing thatz new thatz been happening to me is I have been transferred to another team. Let me stressed over here that I did not ask for the transfer. Almost everyone said I ask for the transfer. It may looks like it considering I cannot clique with my BIG BOSS. Anywayz, I have a phobia of him. I am now under Juraimi and Jacqueline. Whoa...now then I realise I am under two QS which starts with the letter J.

Anyways, being under 2 QS is like being under 1 QS cuz the one who've been giving me things to do are Juraimi. I guess for Meyer and SIF are a bit minor or too major for me to handle. I have learnt a lot of things over the two weeks and I hope I will learn more in days to comes.

One thing for sure, I have to have a sharp eye in this line cuz even a minor mistake is considered major. As more small mistake constitues to a bigger mistake. So I have to learn from it.

Apart from that, I have learn not to use the same password for all my emails, thanks to the hacker who took ALMOST all my accounts. I managed to save one of my email account and I created one new account which the hacker knew about it. I dare not say the other account cuz he might take it too. I also learn that its now a trend for people to hack into other people's accounts. So I have to be cautious. I have reminded my friends.

I also learn to listen to instructions clearly and have more confident in myself. Cuz with confidence, you will have more knowledge as to what you are doing. I dunnoe but I prefer organizing camps than doing measurement in the office. Haiz, I guess I earn the respect from the younger kids but in my workplace, I have to learn. Being on top all the time is not good, yeah. Cuz now, you have to be at the bottom to learn the ropes.

So the point for me to take note is:

To pay attention to minor details such as punctuation, formatting of the table, the spellings and grammars.
To listen to instructions and dun interrupt
To have confident in whatever I am doing instead of blabbering bout the minor careless mistakes
To come to work early and not be a STAR Karat
To find that someone who can give me the motivation (of cuz, though I may have find the person, it still have to depend whether the person like me the way I like that person)
So yeah....To do all those things said above.

Till we meet again peepz, herez the lyrics which touches my heart and its on the home page of this blog. Cya guys around!!! I bold the areas that are similar to my situation right now just like the song Kenangan Terindah by Samsons.

Tuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

Chorus:

Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…Kutuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

Chorus:

Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Argh!!!

2006-11-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

I am so frustrated...SERIOUS!

To all my friends, please do not add me in FRIENDSTER, HOTMAIL, YAHOO as it have been taken by selfish unknown person.

Add me to sha_nurda85@hotmail.com

Any new email shall be updated shortly....

Someone took my account..NOT ONLY DID HE TAKE MY HOTMAIL ACCOUNT, HE ALSO TOOK MY YAHOO ACCOUNT AS WELL!

WHO DOES HE THINK HE IS!!!!!!

TO WHOEVER WHO DID IT, PLEASE KINDLY GIVE BACK MY ACCOUNT ESPECIALLY THE YAHOO ACCOUNT!

THAT YAHOO ACCOUNT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT ACCOUNT! THE REASON IS BECAUSE THAT ACCOUNT IS FOR BUSINESS!!!!!!!!

Seriously!!!! I really hate that guy!!!! SERIOUS!! As a precautionary measure, I have changed my password for all my other accounts that were left untouched and I put all different password for each and every account. This is to prevent losing all my accounts.

Seriously speaking, I dunnoe why he must take all my accounts. Luckily, LUCKILY, I din lose everything as much as I anticipated I would. I just realised one of my old email account, shant reveal where, lest he took it again, have all my old contacts.

But, my yahoo account, LOST just like that? ARGH!!!!!!!!

GIVE IT BACK MAN!!!! JUST GIVE IT BACK!!!!!!!

Haiyoh.....

2006-11-02T16:52:00.000+08:00

Hello peepz of blogspots!!! Itz been a while yeah??

Anywayz, nothing much happen this week. I have been sick this week. Today, thursday was the worst cuz I have to take MC. So much of wanting to take mc on friday. Haiz....but itz a day off today.

So yeah,sometimes I wish I would stick to one QS instead of inter changing QS. Serious....I am going to change into a new QS soon. However, I don't feel the change cuz I have been helping out in almost every projects that my team is doing. Of all the projects, I was pretty quite involved in the Sentosa Project. This is because I have been helping Kelvin doing the VOs for this project. I also help out with my 2 projects, Meyer and SIF.

Sometimes as I work in this company, I din learn much or is it because I feel I din learn much? I wish I could learn more. AQS life for me is about doing the VO, measurement and compiling the documents to form the contract. Haiz..is that the life of an AQS or therez more than meets the eye???

Perhapz, I need to get my priorities right. I should be more open towards my colleagues in order to learn more. Perhapz, I have been in my own world too much that I din get to see the things that needs to be learned. Perhaps, I have been slacking to much.

Haiz...yeah..I should really move forward. Thinking about the past will only bring sadness to myself. I no longer care if that B found a new girl cuz the priority now is getting myself to blend in with my team mates before I change team. I guess my absence in the team will not cause an impact cuz I have been in my own world.

Tomorrow will be a better day than today. As a friend puts it, put the past behind you while learning from it. About B, I will move on and will not over react to his blog. Its sad but I will have to prove that I have move on by not over reacting to his blog. If I reacted, it will shows that I haven move on. I will move on freely now. Moreover, being single is kinda nice sometimes. Sometimes only yeah cuz the feeling being with someone still lingers somewhere in me. Haiz..I hope I wont be single for long. I am just waiting for someone to pop the question for me to be their girl. For now, I know therez no one. Hahaz..:)

So there you go, my post when I am sick. Most are crapz....Till we meet again..take care peepz!!!

Hohoz

2006-10-29T12:13:00.000+08:00

Is it just me or all my computers knows me pretty well!!! In order not to make me feel sad, even my lappie din allow me to check my email..But I read that mail anyhows...And the sentence....Oh wellz, I shouldnt blog about it. I should not over react. I should NOT! So okiez....LETZ GET ON WITH THE HARI RAYA MOOD....No matter all the stories that may hurt me in the end, I shall and I REALLY WILL not let that dampen my mood.

So yeah, Yesterday! Yesterday, Yesterday, I went out for my Hari Raya at JB!!! Okiez...Din get to meet up with all my cuzzins, but itz ok anyhows..All my cuzzins are in Uni while me? I am already working! Shuckz...the worst is...they can still get their duit zakat but as the saying goes.....yang memberi lagi mulia dari yang menerima so....I guess....that could perk me up a bit.

Anywayz, yesterday, I went to all my auntie's and cousin's house with my eldest brother. Again, I din get to meet all my siblings...which is sad really. Seriously, I may not know when can I meet all of them. Haiz.........So anywayz, my nephews are really cute esp the younger one, hez 8 month's old and very chubby. Kinda reminds me of me when I was a baby. Hahaz!!!

So yeah, going and going and then I realised my FLU bug is GONE!!!!!! Thatz like a miracle considering I din get to sleep the morning before(slept at 2am) watching clips of Princess Hours and chatting with 2 of my friends. Seriously, itz a miracle. Hahaz...but my throat still hurts but never mind, the flu bug is gone!!!!!!!!

So yeah...Happy mood coming my way and I shall MOVE ON!!!!!!!!! Moving on freely!!!!!!!

Raya

2006-10-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

Aisey Bedah!!!!!!! Argh!!!!! I already written on the entry before it all got lost!!! ARGH!!!!!!

ANYWAYZ...................................

Hari Raya this year takla semeriah mana pun....

Haiz.......Bingit2!!! Yang paling bingit! Nie hidung nie...Ada ker patut dia kenakan aku FLU BUG bila aku tgh EXCITED MITED untuk berjalan raya besok!

Argh!!!!!!!! FLU BUG!!!! PLEASE GO AWAY TOMORROW!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OKok...I should be grateful for the flu actually. Yelar...boleh juga ponteng kerja...Haiz....

All I know..BESOK, KENA STRONG..ACT HEALTHY!!!!! YEAH!!!!

Yeah2....

2006-10-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

Itz raya again...so this is the checklist to do for tomorrow...GOSH!!! THEREZ SO MANY THINGS TO DO!!!

Buy Ketupat from the market
Buy last minute ingredients for Chocolate Cake and London Almond Cookies
Bake those 2 goodies + Kek Lapis Asam Manis for Hari Raya
Pasang Langsir ( Set up the curtain??)
Mop Rumah
Cook Special Rendang(traditional recipe make famous by my Late Grandmama)
Make good the sofa at the living room
Pasang Cadar tido for all rooms (Make good for all the matresses)

Okiez...Thatz quite a feat to finish in one whole day..Hopefully,I canmake it!!!! So far all my biscuits that are made are :

Biskut Cornflakes(Easiest to make)
Biskut Samprit(HARDEST to make)
Biskut Nestum
Kuih Tart(mum bake)
Kuih Sugee(mum bake)
Popiah(mum)

Whoa...thatz quite a lot of cookies already and yet I wish to bake more..Hahaz...

All I know...All those cookies that are bake are all my favourites!!! I dun care if it cant finish even after Hari Raya ends cuz....I can still eat it after hari raya!!!! Yeay!!!!!!!!! To make matters worst, these are the biscuits that are the hardest to be found at all places excluding Cornflakes and Kuih Tart. Seriously, I dunnoe why itz hard to find traditional kuih nowadays.

So yeah...Hari Raya is a day I am looking forward to cuz....

Itz one of the most happiest day in the whole year!!!!!

SEE YA GUYS SOON!!!!!!! TATAZ!!! LUCKILY, LUCKILY..........I AM NOT WORKING TOMORROW!!!!! :)

Oh yeah!!!! Juz in case I forget...I would like to wish all muslims and indians alike...

HAPPY DEEPARAYA!!!!! :)

Raya

2006-10-21T07:17:00.000+08:00

Whoa......itz been a while again since I last blog.

Hmmm....though raya is coming....I STILL AM NOT READY FOR IT!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!

Shuckz....Still have the kuihs to make though therez already 3 types but I wish to bake more. I dunnoe why. Raya to me is about goodies!!! Therez gonna be a lot extras for kuihs..I just lurve kuih raya!!! Itz the best time to make use of my culinary skills without getting scolded by my mum. Reason being, she hates baking!!

Hahaz! Seriously..I lurve baking cookies cuz itz sweet. I hate to bake cake cuz it alwayz dun turn out to be like what I want it to be.

Seriously....I dun even know what to blog....mind blank..So yeah..I guess this is the crappy entry again. U dun need to understand this blog.....

Kem

2006-10-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

As promised no more bad news and this the latest good thing that happen to me!!!

I have no more pimples on my forehead anymore!!!! Yeay!!! Hahaz but thatz not the good thing.

The best thing was on 14th October 2006!!!

Preparation only started on friday. I had a hard time on friday. It was like slumber party at the mosque. Too good to be true aint it?? Everyone did not sleep the whole of friday. Everyone was super tired on the actual day itself. Unfortunately, we cant show it cuz the volunteers are excited about this event. We have to be active and put on a fresh face.

Due to lack of sleep.......I was as usual, SUPER HYPER ACTIVE by the time night time came. Everyone said I was a little bit crazy. Yeahlah, I talked like a train with my high pitched voice. There was a Masss Outreach Programme and I juz go to the group of malay guys known as the "Mamats". They must have think I am a crazy little tudung girl! Seriously, I just go and spread my message. Too lazy to even think of the consequences to them. What to do...itz juz me when I am left with the least energy in my brain.

All I know, while the other facis were half dead, including me, I was still talking and talking without even bothering the effect it will have on me. But never mind, the effect was good anyways..Hahaz..the team was super active like me. I actually perk them instead!Hahaz..me and my craziness again! How many times it happen. Those who were in camp with me and I was their facilitator, would agree that it happen too many times! When they was tired, I would be asking them to wake up!!!

So there you go, the happy news though a bit incomplete..No energy to type and think at this point of time. Hope u guys forgive me!

Love

2006-10-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

Love....if I were to talk about this thing, promise me, nobody will flare up in the tagboard??? Can okiez.......This shall include my CPU...hahaz..My CPU always crashes on me whenever I talk about love.

Love......the song in malay that was the first page is dedicated to my Mr. B. Seriously, seriously...if first love is this hard, I guess I wont be able to fall in love anymore. I was drowned in the sea. How could I have created this big mistake? How could I fall for him so deep that its so, SUPER hard for me to move on? Not once but many a times so much so that almost evryone I knew scolded me.

Am I that weak? Am I that naive to believe love is everlasting???? I guess I am. Sometimes I wonder how people move on. Did they take a long time to get over their first love like I did?? Seriously, I am super naive or is it because I cant take hardships? Is it because this is the first time I ask for something that I can never get? Is is because he was never meant for me but I kept thinking he is? Sometimes.....I really am not too sure of myself.

Seriously, there was a point I did move on. I did after so long he din contact. I really did move on. I even told my friends that if he were to call me, i would move on and not go back to this depression road again. Unfortunately, it was not to be. It was just an empty dustbin making noise. When he called, at first, yeah...it seems like I did move on. But as the days gone by, there was something. I guess itz just me. Flashes of him keep coming in my dreams yet again and I kept missing him again. The heart skips a beat when he calls the 2nd and the next. Smiles were on my face as he calls. Yet again, I was falling into the trap yet again.

So then, I really dunnoe whats wrong with me. Then again, I should move on because I am doing injustice to both him and myself. I heard, nopez, He told me he was doing well in skewl and might or might not find someone new in his skewl. Should I feel jealous and over react to his actions??? I mean, itz been so long we broke up but why do I still feel the way I feel when we were together??? The feeling, for those who are in my shoes or have been in my shoes...will know and should know that this feeling is full of pain and disastrous to oneself.

I am trying so hard over here to move on as much as I can. I am depleted of energy to move on. Seriously, it is true. Each time, he returns, my energy is used up to make me move on. As that energy gets depleted, I feel so empty. I am just scared that this energy will make me avoid falling for anyone ever again.

I have started to feel insecure about myself. This is getting scary, aint it? At work, I am not bubbly. In fact, I seemed to be quiet almost all the time. The thing that can make me stay sane is of course, my volunteerism, my best friends at work(Fidah and Juli) and by praying to Allah S.W.T.

Haiz....seriously....I just hope I can just find the energy to move on and still believes that love could lasts for eternity if I find the right one. I just hope tomorrow is a better day. I have been dragging tomorrow to come as tomorrow seems to bring bad news rather than good news. I hope with a new lease of bedroom with Lavender aroma filling the room. I might just ease away of stress over this.

I wish I could go back in secondary school days where life seems ever so peaceful. Though I may not be the popular group, but at least I have fun. So does my poly days....I wish I could go back time and erase the part where he broke up with me for the first time.

In days to come, I hope my blog will be filled with happy news rather than bad news. So far, life has been more of a bad news and the best thing that has happen so far to me is getting a new bedroom. I hope more will come. I shall blog about it and put the past far behind me. I hope I wont go to that depression road if he does find someone new. I should move on with my life as much as I can though the energy thats inside of me is at it's minimum. All I know, I cant take anymore bad news coming my way. I will be in super great depression that I might go to IMH for medical purpose. Thats the reason why everywhere I go, I must have motivation posters to keep me going.

I repeat once more...please do not flare up on my tagboard. I just hope this would be my last time talking about love. (hope itz not an empty dustbin again) haiz.........

life is meaningless....I shall end this with the lyrics to the song Kenangan Terindah by Samsons

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu...
Kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku...
Kau lah cinta sejati

Ooh...

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Ooh...

P.S. The bold words are the words that really touches my heart and really depicts my life.

Yeah

2006-10-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

Ya know....I just realised something..

My CPU did not crash on me...rather itz because my CPU ada sikit slow fuse macam tuan dia juga. ...

This is because, I haven use my computer so long. Thus the cpu need a little bit start up. Kena warm up beberapa hari baru dia cepat bergerak!!! Haiz.............It applies to my office com 2 ya noe...My office com pun, masa first day, fulamakz.....punya la lama nak start..tapi skrg...fuyoo........cepat bergerak!

anywayz...thatz what I want to blog juz to test my computer at home...so sesiapa yang tak faham..tak payah faham....itz ok...

The shortest blog and the longest break

2006-10-05T13:08:00.000+08:00

Hey peepz...

This is gonna by my shortest blog. Hahaz..will it be???

Anywayz...itz been a great month so far.

Shuckz man..the reason there was a long break was because my CPU crash down on me!!!! ARGH!!! I really have a lot of things to say but because my CPU crash down, I cant blog about it. Now, I am at work blogging!!!! Argh!!!

Anywayz...the big news is..MY ROOM HAS BEEN RENOVATED!!!! YEAYNESS!!!!!!! I have a NEW bed!!!!!!!! YEAYNESS!!!!!!!!

Now, I need to buy a new CPU! But hor..I no money to buy CPU..Someone care to sponsor me?? Hahaz...never mind, I intend to buy this new CPU in January next year. Reason being, in december, therez a BONUS!!!!

Okiez ar..this is the most crap blog I have ever written so itz not meant to be understood..To my MR B, the song, "My Heart" by Irwan Syah and the girl seems like our situation eh? It should be made our song!!!!!! Haiz.......anywayz, I think that song only apply to me. Hahaz!

So anyway.....tatz it peepz...I cant wait for 14th Oct cuz.................Itz YIC day!!!! Im super uber excited about it!!!! Cya guyz there!!!

Reminincing the days

2006-09-03T15:41:00.000+08:00

Itz been a while yeah....

I have been busy cleaning my room this past weekend and I saw something that catches my eyes.......so here goes the starting: -

Before I was introduced to the world of blogging, I used to write in a diary. That was years ago...till last year. I suddenly realised something. In almost every entry of my diary since primary 6(yeah thatz when I first started writing), there was one name that kept mentioning. Yeah, you guess it ryte. Who else but my beloved ex(whom I still love, thus the word beloved), Mohd. Faeiz B Ramley. See..even now...his name still lingers in my diary. The different is.....then, we were juz friends but then, we became lovers to secret lovers to friends again. Seriously, yeah..there was other people's name but they only lasted like a few months and then stop. But this guy...I dunnoe whatz so special about him that in almost every entry there's his name. Gosh! Hope he din read this. Nah, he still can't figure out how to even after I teach him how to do it. hahaz!

Haiz...seriously..since itz super evident we cant be together, I dunnoe why I keep on hanging on to him. Haiz...not once but so many a time. The different between then and now is that....Now, you guyz can tag on it. I still remember this guy..forgot his name. I think it was argh!!! I dunnoe ar...perhapz, u can enlightened me. This guy would give advises. I tink hez from SP cuz I saw his nick on Haddad's tagboard. I just love Faeiz for who he is, that voice of his and his character. Then, he was my motivator..now, he still is but with studying not a factor, he is my motivator to face the day bravely. All I know, I am still struggling to live as a singleton. Everyone knows no matter what happen, if faeiz were to ask me to go back to him, I will. I mean it does not happen once but a lot of times already..thus the word secret lovers cuz nobody knows we are together till I break with him once again. I am tired, he too is tired of playing this hide and seek game. Since when will this chain of events will break..it have to depends on one party. Haiz...

Sighing is not a good thing aint it?? But it was...then...another name crops up my journal. My friend who juz couldn't be friends with me anymore. I thought it happen once when I read again. Nopez, it has happened twice. The different between then and now is then we were in secondary school together. There was a high chance of rekindling back friendship. Now, as we walk different paths, it makes it difficult to rekindle back. The main reason is, of course, no physical connection to make amends. I have to rely on other communication method which is by far....USELESS. I dunnoe..I still feel action speaks louder than words. Thatz why all method to me is useless. Haiz....I really miss her. I mean we were close friends. We had a lot of memories together. I really hope she will forgive me and go back to old times where I can ask her out juz to have a cup of tea. Sit and hang out at Segar LRT station for hours. Haiz....

Thus, the memories....the names of various people that came into my life. How I nearly became attached to another guy but din. How I suffered back in secondary school days were reflected. How a girl became jealous of me cuz I was close to a guy she like. How I transformed from a boyish chick to a real chick. I guess I have changed a lot, A WHOLE LOT! I still remember how I used to hate makeup and wearing contact lenses. Now, these things are like my life. I still remember how my dress code doesnt matter. Now, it matters a WHOLE LOT. You may asked my ex who saw me transformed. He knew cuz the first time I met him, I was wearing like a pajama. Now, pajama is out but I became a women. A real WOMAN/ LADY. Makeup is not like putting foundation. Make up to me is juz eyeliner and lipstick. I cant wear foundation cuz it juz destroys my face.

Yeah, the first time I wore make up..Fuyoo...breakouts were imminent! I just cant wear them. That also became part of the topic in my diary. I hate breakouts. The real thing is I hate pimples!!!!!!! PIMPLES! EWW..........Thus, the top priority is to keep my face as far away from pimples. I used to have a MAJOR breakout back in poly days..Whoa!!!! That was my worst year!! Seriously, I was lucky enough..None of my breakout turns into scars or I will be DOOMED!!! I was this vain! See! See what I mean by changing to a real LADY. Back in secondary school, this pimples din matter to me. You can asked my secondary schoolmates. While they are busy trying to burst the pimples, I just let it grow till it drop off my face. It really helps, I tell you. The more you try to burst the pimples(i tried it in poly), the more pimples that grows on ur face. Back in secondary school days, i was proud enough that I din have that much pimples.

So...changing is just part of life. The reason I wrote this entry is not because I wanted to continue off from my ex's entry but itz because I saw my own diary and it kinda makes me reflects on stuffs. Now, itz the time for happiness..

Yesterday, I went to the Home Team Academy. It was great! Superbly great!!! The concert were great!!!!!!!! Trust me! It was great!!! Taufiq Batisah was there!!!!!!!!!! Khairul Anwar was there!!!! If I din quarrel with my friend, I would have brought her there instead. This is because she likes khairul anwar!! Though, he is my friend back in poly. We talked a bit. but not so much.

I guess this is the entry for today....so much about reflections..And yeah, I will change the skin soon! Watch out for it!!!

Wow!

2006-08-20T13:12:00.000+08:00

Hello peepz of blogspot!!! Itz been nearly 2 weeks since I last posted a blog...Anywayz..this past two weeks have been a very, VERY busy week! Been staying late in work and itz super tiring!!!!

Haiz.......itz official that I am ehmm, ehmm..........okiez la...a workaholic?? Hahaz! LIKE REAL! Itz kinda of forcing urself to work to the limit due to strict deadlines!!!!! Haiz..............Itz super tiring and my dad asked me to quit and join the police force. Isnt that even more tiring that what I am doing now? Running physically?!!?!?!!?! Now, juz sit down and do the work! Haiz.....maybe I might join the police force........

So yeah......this is gonna be a super short one cuz....I really have no stories to tell!!!!! So yeah...have a nice day..and to those peepz who are waiting for your pictures..I think I better send the photos by email instead..Much faster!!! take care peepz!!!!

Sorry1!! gtg Now! bubbye!!!

Friendship

2006-07-22T20:55:00.000+08:00

Seriously, Seriously, this week will be better if I did not receive a message from this friend of mine. She broke my heart, seriously. I din expect her to message until like that when I did not give her what she wanted. Fortunately, I had my colleagues aka my close poly friends to comfort me at that point of time. I'll let her be cos' I know she just said it out of pique. I am just hurt by what she said. Totally hurt. I hope she knows it.

Anywayz, this week is not a week I expected it to be. Reason being,I wasnt that busy. I guess Kelvin must be scared to give me any work thus doing it by himself. As for nadia, she gave me work only at the end of the week. Nevertheless, it was great.

The greatest about this week is my friends and I slacked throughout the week. They went out practically everyday. I did overtime on monday because the tenderers for one of the project juz came for the pre-qualification. I stayed late but it was fun.

On Tuesday, I ate dinner with Ramdhan the guy who just came back from Mekkah. Hez the cutest guy that I have ever met. Hez not the most hensome chap but hez most pious than all my friends combined. Thus, therez this something about him that would make any girl go ga-ga over. This includes me! I used to like him back in secondary skewl. Im not sure if I do have the same feeling now but all I know, he only treat me as a friend. :)

The next day, hmmm...we(meaning my 4 friends) went to the esplanade and talked about life in the office. It was fun. There was a heart to heart talk between us. We were very open with each other and secrets revealed. I mean, this is what an outing should be. Release the stress out!!!

And it was this very day, that friend of mine broke my heart. Haiz :( Till today..though itz been 4 days, I still cant believe she said that to me. Seriously, I hope she knows what she said. I think shez being childish thinking liddat. I hope she will take things easy and not come to any conclusions. I used to do that till I got my very own lesson. Haiz....

Anywayz, this week is gerekz. The weekend is boring.......Never mind....I had 2 happy weekends which is considered great. This week also marks the return of my parents. Thus the busy weekend cleaning my home. Seriously, my mum is very particular about the cleaniness of the house. My room as usual is as disorganized like me. Thus, I had a hard time thinking where to start. Till now, I haven finished packing and cleaning the room. I really should do it..

So yeah..I guess im off to cleaning my room now! Bubbye peepz!!!

Wheee!!!!

2006-07-16T15:30:00.000+08:00

Whoo Hoo!!! Weetz!!!! Another happy weekend coming my way!!!! Again it starts off with Thursday!!!!!!!!!! It was fun, FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okiez, this Thursday has got to be the best Thursday ever!!! It was a girls nite out! So yeah!!!! We knocked out from work at around 6pm. It was fun cuz we walked around from our workplace all the way to Coffee Bean at Clarke Quay. Took lots of photos around! Coffee Bean was great! I mean we took photos and eat our dinner as a group. It was super duper fun! Then, it was off to the next stop Esplanade. We took dramatic photos while walking from Clarke Quay to the Esplanade. The best part was as we were taking dramatic photos, a tourist wanted to take photos with us!!!!!!! I guess we were having too much fun that a tourist was attracted to us! Hahaz!!!! The was a Sound Check at the Esplanade and I kinda had a crush on the Drummer(all of us were, hahaz) cuz hez so damn CHARMING!!!!!!! We stayed late and it was off to home cuz tomorrow we had work!!!!

Friday….hmmm………boring day..so nothing much to tell just that I know this coming week, I am so gonna have a BUSY, BUSY week! I have to help out with 2 QS’s instead of 1. Who else but Kelvin(the hensome one) and Nadia(the saviour)!!! So yeah..I am gonna get scolded this week. I expect the worst to come cuz I have been so much fun for the past 2 weeks already! Haiz……I wonder what will be the outcome now!!! I am lurving what I am doing now!!!

Saturday…itz the Nurhayat day!!!!!! Nurhayat alumni meeting up sessions were a fun event. There were 7 of us with the early birds being me, Najib n Masnor. We ate at Long John’s before heading to Marina to meet the rest of the gang(the late comers)! Actually, the initial plan was to watch a movie at PS. Because some of them need to go home early or we are expecting sommore people to join, we decided to play Bowling instead. Thus the trip to Marina.

I took photos with each and everyone of them! It was great, fun! I think, if I wanna organize any events, I would say…NO MOVIES!!!!! Reason being: Waste Money and Waste Time cuz we cant interact while watching movies! We could do dozens of stuffs like playing bowling, pool or even cycle at East Coast! But No Movies!

While waiting for our turn to play bowling, we head off to the arcade opposite the bowling alley. We had fun! I played asking for more 50 cents coins cuz we dun have enough coins to play..Hahaz! It was hilarious playing the Lost World. I cant even shoot properly! Hahaz!!! Im so dead!!!!

When it was our turn, we had fun looking at each other playing bowling. I will upload the picture and links will be available in my blog by the end of today. I had fun, they too had fun!!!!! Weird though…EVERYONE says I am the most HYPER person that it gets SCARY???? Am I that super hyper??? I wonder??? Hmmm.............

Anyways….after bowling, one of them had to get back to work as shez on standby. Sorry gerl! Itz fortunate really that when the bowl ended then shez being called up for duty. It was superbly fun! After which, we are gonna eat at Magic Wok! I had a great dinner with them! I ordered 3 drinks for myself as I was SUPER DAMN thirsty!!!! The food at Magic Wok is similar to Sakura only Sakura is better! Hahaz! Anywayz, worth trying though!!

Slowly, at the end of our dinner, it was left with only 4 of us, Namely, me, Liyana, Najib and Masnor. We took great photos at the old court at the City Hall to head for the Esplande for the second time! There was an event there. I tink itz the collaboration between CCTV and Mediacorp. Whatever it is, I am so no interested in it.

Did you know therez a gig at the ESPLANADE??? Bet you don’t! Well yeah, there was a gig! It was great!!!!! There were dozens of people and it was super crowded!!!! We went to the roof only to get chased out! ARGH!!!! Yeah, it is closing for the day..what to do?Haiz...

All in All,I HAD FUN!!!! So yeah!! I guess itz super incomplete cuz I am too lazy to type..Toodles everyone! Bubbye!!!

WOW

2006-07-09T16:40:00.000+08:00

Whoo Hoo!!! This weekend has got to be the best WEEKEND EVER!!!!!!!!! Okiez...lets start off with Thursday.... Thursday marks the graduation ceremony for my course. As it is my graduation ceremony, I have tried my best to look the best for this day. I mean itz GRADUATION! The really last day of school! It started off at 9.30 sharp. It was fun. After the ceremony, all the graduating students took lots and LOTS of picture. The lecturers becomes a celebrity as people wanted to take photos with them!!! Kewl ryte?? My friends and I went to eat at FC3 for our lunch( though there was refreshments). I mean itz the last day you will be coming down to SP. All I know we had fun. Okiez, after eating our lunch, we head down to Ubi Driving Centre to register one of my good friends who wanted to learn how to drive. Speaking of which, I have yet to put in 200 bucks into my bbdc account. SO dEAD! So yeah, we head down to Marina Promenade Bowling Alley to play a game of bowling. It was super fun with all the friends cheering and make fun of you( in a jokingly manner) while you are playing. All I know, the day was fun that all of us did not want to come back on friday.

By friday morning, my friends and I are superbly tired to wake up. Fortunately, friday is known as the Slack day where all the workers turn up later than usual. Later that night, I have a camp at Masjid Assyakirin. I din know what to expect. I packed my bag like 30mins before departing for the camp. Just bring whatever thatz expected for a camp. The camp was SUPERB! Thats all I can say. I mean, I was blessed again with a gang of good team players and thus, we won the best group of the camp. The reason why it was fun was because of the activities that were planned by the committee members. The real event started on Saturday.

Saturday morning, we went trekking at Bukit Timah! It was tiring but fun. The group really bonded during this trekking. Everyone had fun including me. I would burn all the photos that was taken by the photographers for the camp. I bought the compilation cd for the camp. I was crazy enough not to bring my camera! Stupidity...I will bring cameras in my next camp! Therez a video and I think I did some stupid act that I laughed while watching it especially during the trekking at Bukit Timah. We went down backwards instead of forward. It was fun with the Fityan Assyakirin.

After trekking at Bukit Timah, we had free and easy time. Its also called the wash up time. Everyone is sweaty and surely, most of them would like to take a bath. There would be no washing up for them till late at night. After washing up, we are left with only 30mins before the next event. In order not to make the campers sleep, I suggested that we play a game of concentration. Though, only 4 of us were the enthusiastic one, we managed to catch the attention of many people. Its ok if you watch us play, just do not sleep. Hahaz, that’s what I want them to feel. I think that they would feel superbly tired if they sleep. The game really makes them wake up.

Yeah, the next event was Amazing Race. So the energy must be there and not left stagnant. My group was lucky enough to start from the roof instead of the 3rd floor. The reason for this is because we have to decide where our next station would be. Since we start from the roof, we just move down the steps. The best station for this Amazing Race would be the 3rd station that was held in the Auditorium of the mosque. The game is trying to put a ball from a bucket into the pail by using only two strings set outside the boundary of the pail. All players are not to step into the boundary. The objective of this game is about co-ordination among the team players. They have to think of a good way to lift the bucket up using the strings before co-ordination comes in. My team has done well after much encouragement from their facilitator who is me! Hahaz :P I am a faci thus I cant help but just give encouragement. They nearly give up cuz of the time constraint. Moreover, we were left with less than 30 before the ball manages to get into the bucket. It was stressful. All I could think of was say, “Don’t think of the time, guys! You can do it. The time will only stress you more. Just focus on getting the ball into the bucket!” Serious, they was super tensed, I could feel it. When I said that, they relax a bit and whoa la! They did it!

So the lesson that I learn from this game is never give up though time is limited cuz you never know when you will succeed.

After that, we had another round of rest and easy due to prayers and dinner. As the 4 of us are hyper, we decided to play another set of game. Nice! Again, there were spectators watching us. When I asked, all of them said no. I dare not force them. Just watch the fun that we have. Hahaz! I am mean! :P

After dinner is the Motivational Talk aka Motalk. It was the usual stuff about learning yourself more and recharge yourself. Anywayz, the motalk is good though I learn nothing new. Hahaz! So after the Motalk, everyone is SUPERBLY tired. That includes my team. Again, me and the other faci, Ani had to encourage them to say the cheer as there was a reward. We started the ball rolling. Yeah, as our cheer was super short yet strong, the other teams were a bit discouraged. Theirs was long and draggy. But we encouraged them so that all the teams would cheer! This is what I called a good team player! Never discourage others from doing things.

So that perked them up a bit before the next event, the twilight zone! As the wait for the twilight zone becomes longer and draggy, I decided on playing the concentration game. Now, not only the 4 of us, but at least there were 10 people playing in the team. This is of course; I guess seeing we had fun, they wanted to join in too. This is cool! And thus, only the 10 of us were awake while waiting for the twilight zone.

The twilight zone took like 2 hours to end. Thus the whole event for yesterday ended around 1am. It was super tiring that all of us couldn’t wake up on time for subuh prayers. But we had fun especially the twilight zone. Being the facilitator, we can play pranks on the campers. They were blindfolded and thus had to rely on us for the routes. We are super mean, ryte? They called me the Bidadari or ustazah as I helped them at my place. Their pranks were so bad cuz they had to crawl and touch the wall when in fact itz only a staircase corridor! Apart from that, most of the campers were hit by the camouflage that was used in the army on their faces. Mean rite!? Some of the campers scared the shit out of themselves! Haiz…I really pity them. Luckily, I wasn’t in their position. Overall, most of the campers felt that the twilight zone was the best event for the day!

The very next day which is today was superbly tired. Being a faci, ani and I had to show an enthu face for the campers. We may be tired but we can’t let them see. Once we do, they will have no mood to do anything. I was super hyper that the cameraman, Mail said, “faci hyper abis tapi campers da penat.” Hahaz. :P

So yeah, it was fun, FUN, FUN!!!!!!! The great thing is, I had fun after stress at work!

Yeah..Today…we had to do a presentation on the business proposal. My team prepared for this proposal before trekking the Bukit Timah and during the free and easy time. Most of the ideas come from them and I just added a bit based on my experience learning entrepreneurship back in SP. It was super kewl cuz my team was like the only team who thinks through everything that the judges wanted. Of course, I guided them by asking them questions on being an entrepreneur. I din give them direct answers. I let them find the answers on their own. They even came out with their own slogan! Before I release the slogan for you guys, we are selling sweets as the business proposal.

Thus the slogan is, “No one can resist the sweetness of sweets!”. Nice!

The next event after this business proposal is obstacle course. Its more like station games. The games is super nice and kewl!

Overall the weekend spend was Great!!!!!! I din regret it one bit!!!!! Lurve it!!!!!! Also I learn about how I should be grateful. When I heard how one of them had suffered so much, I should be grateful with the family that I have. We may have problems but other people may have worst problems than us. Also, we shouldn’t judge a book without looking through it first. We should accept people as who they are and not judge them. We may not know what problems they had to lead them to be that way.

So that’s all folks! Very, VERY Long one from me!!!! Till we meet again next week, Tataz!!!! :)

Whish

2006-07-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

Hello again...

Itz Saturday..today I spent the whole day outside...Hmm...it started off with the seminar which I practically dun understand what it means...

Then, after which I bought my blazer for my graduation ceremony. After which...........thats where everything started....

I met my primary skewl bez friend...Syazwani. Remember her, faeiz??? Yeah, we were in the same tuition class. If I were a guy, I would have sworn shez changed and look much more prettier than the last time I saw her. And I would have asked out. But too bad, I am still normal thus, no feelings there.

Yeah..we went back to my primary skewl. WOW! It have changed so much since the last time I saw the place. It looks so modern, so everything. Therez a home economics room!!!! Can you believe that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously...wow!!!! Home Econs room? Cooking in skewl????? Does ALL primary skewl have a home econs room?? I saw my teacher aged with time. Itz been 10 years and all the teachers looks so different and we also found out that one of the teachers were actually promoted to be a HOD in Maths. Also, therez 2 Vice Principle now compared to one VP 10 years ago. Apart from that, there was 3 change in Principle since we graduated. 10 years is a LONG, LONG time!!!!!! I mean...wow!!!!!

We watched a 30min show by the students and WOW! The standards were like WOW! The choir was superbly good!!!!!!!!! The chinese dance were KEWL!!!!!! The malay dance and indian dance was ok. You should watch the chinese dance. They were like doing acrobatics show!!!! Can you imagine yourself stretching yourself without any pain? Wow! I love it!!!

Then I watched Superman returns and what the heck..................It was SUPER crap! Reason for the crap:

The passengers in the airplane were not even hurt a scratch even when the plane was like having a SUPERBLY heavy turmoil. I mean...the people were like hitting the chair and bags were hitting them. They could still be alive. Lois were the worst hit by bumping into all sorts of things could still survive??????? That is crap! She could be KILLED!!!!!! But No! Not only did she not suffer from internal injury, she could LITERALLY stand on her 2 feet talking to Superman saying she's fine! Hello????? Isnt she supposed to be dead already or all the people in this show is supposed to be like superman???
Lex's girlfriend whose car break loses control could hit many cars without even stopping or slowed down!!!!
Superman have a kid??? When did Lois even slept with him???? I mean even the past few superman show did not state sleeping with him. And Lois cant even recognise Clark who is Superman!

So I guess....this show is a CRAP show!!!!!! The best was only the VISUAL EFFECTS, that also, I have to remind is.........THE FIRST FEW MINUTES ONLY!!!!!! I thought itz gonna be a kewl movie seeing the 3D effect for the starting show..BUT NO!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So to everyone out there...DONT WATCH SUPERMAN RETURNS! NOT WORTH YOUR MONEY UNLESS YOU WANT TO GET MAD!

I also bought myself Body Shop products!!!!!!!!!! Itz kinda kewl..I mean their product are amongst the BEST product!!!!!! No chemicals and.......................................NO TESTING ON ANIMALS!!!!

So there you go, the story for today!

Whooosh

2006-07-01T01:16:00.000+08:00

Hello2......

Hmmm...another week has passed by..I talked to him again yesterday nite. Unknowingly, I make him angry again. Haiz...it went so well and I just have to say it. ARGH!!! I know itz gonna be worst. Thankfully, for his good words of advise..he said it was talking sense to my head but I called it the MOTIVATIONAL BOOST! Tanx yeah! And sorry bout the way the conversation had to end.

So yeah..as I was saying........A week has passed thru very quickly. What have I done for this week?? Hmmmm..........calling to the contractor to collect the drawings and everything. No measurement. Nadia said a new project is coming up this coming season but during dinner just now( will talk about it later), the AD said that he will transfer the project out since Meyer is gonna be super hectic! Haiz...........................WHY!!!!!

So yeah....the good news about this week okiez...

My sister gave birth to a baby girl on the 26th of June 2006. Isnt it cool? The number is superbly nice. Well Done Sis! 260606....Congratulations on giving birth to a girl and take VERY good care of yourself yeah!? You are superbly unwell due to 3 operations at one go.

Giving birth to Nuramanina Batrisyia(the name of my NIECE!)
Clear out the burst fibroids of the uterus( to save both my niece n my sis)
Tie up the uterus(is it, anyways, itz to prevent my sis to get pregnant again)

Thatz superbly hard on her..I really hope she will survive cuz I cant go and visit her. Reason being...........I cant go out of Singapore unless I make my passport which I might delay till next year. Therez a reason okiez!

The next good news is therez a team dinner!!! It was fully sponsored by the AD. Seriously, it was a casual affair and I like the food!!! Of cuz....but itz super EXPENSIVE!!!!! So, OBVIOUSLY, I cant afford it untill I do OT for 100hours per month. Which is like superbly crazy!!! All I know...with Nadia around, I lurve working in DLS!!!!!!!!! Cuz finally I can relate to her!! I am still working on it!!!

The bad news now....

Hmm......for the first, itz stated in the first paragraph. I actually hurt him by saying those hurtful stuffs. Seriously...I should have said in another way. But tooo bad, I have done it again. Haiz..he will forgive and forget??? Hmmm...it would take a miracle to do that. I shouldnt have doubted him neither should I have doubted his sincerity towards me. Haiz..itz been done. I just hope things between him will be normal like it used to be. Haiz....

I went to a lawyer's office only to find out that itz gonna be superbly impossible to get something changed! Haiz!!! Why must there be that clause!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Stupid clause!!! However, if god wills it, I am sure this lawyer is gonna do his utmost best to find a loophole to this case. I am gonna engaged this lawyer since the company lawyer said that the price is reasonable enough.

Oh yeah.........I thought its gonna end there but I just remembered something that happen this week. So here goes...

Last tuesday, I went shopping!!!! And when I came back home, I saw 2 of my ex- primary skewl mate. One was ok, while the other wasnt. Letz name them, shall we..The ok person is L while the other is H. So yeah...L was talking to me the whole time that day trying to get information about me. H is a different story..Contacting me at the wrong time and all. Seriously, I wasnt interested in him. Haiz...Seriously, the way he talked to me is like so mushy and I was like? Ok....Then I told B yesterday about it and guess what B said. B said that he might have a crush on me. I was like.......No!!! It cant be happening. Never mind la..I know it wont last long anywayz..He was actually talking to another girl in the bus on that day which I can conclude one thing..He will be unfaithful, moreover...he smokes. Haiz...........

And the day after, wednesday...I had a walk with Hafiz....from Lot 1 to the Mcdonalds near my area. It was fun but it was another casual affair between me and him although it took place at around 9.30pm. I was hungry and I just asked anyone out who wished to eat with me. I would have lurved asking B out but because of something he said, I decided not to. It was superbly kewl ya know. We were talking about life after poly, my workplace and the grade of all the QS company and the WORLD CUP! Seriously, he told me about the game itself. ( I asked him to explain how it is played cuz I snoozed while watching the world cup!) Seriously, I did sleep lor..waking up only when the WHOLE BLOCK shouted..GOAL!!!!!!!!!!!!! By then, I only see how the striker or midfielder managed to get the ball inside the goalpost. Yeah, the whole block practically shouted GOAL during the last world cup where Brazil won!

Speaking of which, I made a comment regarding Brazil performance this year in front of my teamates. Suddenly I realised as I was talking, both Kah Ming and Kelvin was actually looking at me in awe and hate. I dunnoe ar..cuz I said their performance is not as good as last time as they played against weak opponents. Hahaz..But still the look...showed that they were quite shocked...esp from Kelvin. He will have this kind of look if he din believe you.Hahaz!!! I do lor...due to last WORLD CUP! Actually, world cup is the only football match that I watched besides UEFA CUP where Real Madrid plays!!! Is it UEFA or sumthing else?????? Tell me in the tagboard yeah???

So yeah...thatz the end of the story for today...Guess!!!!!

Tomorrow is my primary skewl's Open HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!KEWLNESS!

I am gonna report it though I will be there for only 3 hours from 2-5pm. Cya guyz there if you know where it is...itz SOUTH VIEW Primary School OPEN HOUSE!!!!

My birthday

2006-06-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

Itz 246 again... Besides being the multiple of two, it also marks the day of my birth. Thus today I will be turning 21...

Turning 21...

Haiz...a year ago it was the BIG 2...now...itz BIG 2 + 1...21...............

Haiz..............................

I am getting older and therez more responsibility to take on. I wonder what will the outcome be for this year.. I mean…what was my birthday wish last time??

Lemme see the archives for a moment…

Hmm…………

to receive a call from him giving me a birthday wish(negative)
to receive birthday wishes from my friends juz like last 246(a bit positive)
to receive birthday presents at least from my closest friends(positive)
to be happy with my working life(a bit positive yet negative)

and yesterday’s wish

Still hoping for him to call me at the strike of midnight(negative)
Waiting for tomorrow to come..I would like an ICE CREAM Cake as my bdae present!!!

The wish that came true was……

Receive a call from him giving me a birthday wish and calling at MIDNIGHT!!!!!!!!!
Receive birthday wishes from my friends juz like last 246

The others did not came true….

So yeah…a bit sad…but I shall move on with life and just be happy. Moreover itz my BIRTHDAY!!!!! Yeah…so the best was receiving that call from that special one who still have a place in my heart..I wonder if I still have a place in his heart???

Haiz…so be it then..I shall not be jealous of girls getting near him but I am. So I shall persevere. Hold on..He did say this sentence yesterday nite which makes me happy!!!!..Shant say it..so yeah. I guess thatz it.

Anywayz…today I went shopping with my mum. Unknowingly, I had actually bought presents for my sis using my bday money! SHUCKS! But never mind, I can always replace it when my pay comes in next week.

Shopping has never been better….eating at Swensons at Suntec City was DEFINITELY better than anywhere else. Reason is because…the food came in like a few seconds after ordering. Not only that the people there are all SUPERBLY friendly!!!!!

Anywayz……today has been great so far as it IS my BIRTHDAY!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR WISHING ME ON MY BIRTHDAY PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eve of birthday

2006-06-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

Today is the eve of my birthday........

Hmmm....events for today are............

Feedback session with the DD regarding the AD....
Ate 2 cakes in celebration of my bday and Kah Ming's Bday
Got money as a bdae present (seriously, i din expect it to be that much)
Got presents from my Parents...
the day just turns better today
Still hoping for him to call me at the strike of midnight(negative)
Waiting for tomorrow to come..I would like an ICE CREAM Cake as my bdae present!!!

So yeah....I guess thatz it...

Wait for tommorow's update! If I have the mood to blog...

ARGH!!!

2006-06-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

Wokayz.......itz been 2 weeks since I last blogged..Today I blogged cuz FINALLY, therez a turn of events.

Yeah....the week have been sad for the couple of days with my poor appraisal only to be reviewed today. Then, the boss and the clever guy giving me a piece of advice. The boss was like giving me a warning before he really blows up. Soon, Soon enough, I will be the victim of the wrath of his anger. I tink I will cry right in front of his eyes if he were to do that. As for the clever guy..he was giving warning also and said that hez been sheltering me from getting the scolding and that I will be in deep trouble once the project starts and he cant be sheltering anymore.

Haiz.......so yeah...I guess the pressure is already mounting on me. Seriously....it is..I nearly want to quit after seeing my appraisal but it wont reflect good and moreover I din learn much yet. I have to wait a little while more. I have to wait and wait. Like I said, Nadia has been helpful and the clever guy also have been nice to me.

Today, therez also another reason why I wrote this blog...

Itz 2 more days to my birthday...Yet, I received no news from the loved one. :( Haiz...Itz nearly 4 days..I yearned for his voice. Haiz...never mind...I shall be patient. Thatz the key. I mean he did say, just be patient. He will come when I least expected. I mean thats what been happening. When I expect something, I will be sad when it din happen. He knows it so do I. Hahaz :)

There was an Art Festival at Lot 1. It was wonderful. So that was the turn of event also.

Seriously, I would have loved watching it with my loved one. The festival ended with fireworks. It makes it even more romantic having your loved one hugging you and then kiss you on the cheeks. Besides that, he whispers the 3 words, " I love you" in your ears while hugging and watching the fireworks. Whoa..where did I see that scene??? Oh yeah.....on CH8 and CH5.....Itz romantic. How I wish I could experience it!!

That scene can only be captured in my brain and be a dream never to come true. This is because the event will end this sunday...Haiz.......

So yeah...thats the news I have for the week..I wonder if I would update about the event leading to my Birthday...Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....

That again will be the story of fate and time...........

Argh!!!

2006-06-09T21:12:00.000+08:00

Seriously.....Seriously.....

Okiez..I have a lot of time blogging this week cuz I was sick. As in SERIOUSLY SICK. I was down with Cough, Flu and Fever! Gosh!!! I hate the sickness but what to do...Haiz...I dun even know how it start. All I know, it starts with a fever and an irritation throat last tuesday. I guess itz due to crying a lot on monday. I mean itz 24 hours mah....Yeah2.....so the person had explained what happened.

Actually, I was sick since last thursday. I was well cuz the ulcer at my teeth was ok. Since the RAFFLES doctor actually cursed me, he actually said," I wonder how come you dont have any sore throat?" What the heck?! SORE THROAT!?

True enough to his words...................I did get a throat irritation last monday. I could still talk though. It just got worst by the day. Yeah, I was having fever. The fever never did subsides..Hahaz..I just act as per normal. Tuesday was the worst cuz I feel super weak all over that I spent my lunch time SLEEPING that my Exec Director asked me if I had eaten any or not. Truth is, I cannot even eat due to the throat irritation. I went to the doctor and get my medicine. That throat irritation was gone only to be REPLACED with a ROCK STAR voice! So yeah, that explains my voice now.

Yesterday, I could barely talk cuz I could feel the pain while talking yet I still persevered. Today, I can talk without the pain but the voice is still there. Gosh, sometimes I miss my own voice. Haiz....

I just hope tomorrow it will get better...And now...back to the topic of flaming up in the tagboard...

I am so sorry for causing all the commotion. I mean, I shouldnt have said what I have said in the blog cuz it caused flaming up in the tagboard. From none to flaming up. I am really sorry cuz the person who tagged was not who I was referring to. Sorry, missy... Yeah..seriously, how many times did I talk about love and there will sure be flaming up. I guess, the blog peepz are really keened to stop me from talking about love. Hahaz..:)

So yeah, this week will be lesson for me..Never EVER write stuffs that might pin point to the wrong person. I dunnoe why must I use codenames. Seriously, I used codenames to make the person dun realised itz them. But, seriously, again I must say I am sorry.

SAD...

2006-06-05T21:28:00.000+08:00

Gosh!!NEVER in MY WHOLE LIFE I CRIED THE WHOLE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

I hate it, I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO WHATS IT? FIGURE IT OUT YOURSELF!

ALL I KNOW......I JUST HATE IT!!! IT BRINGS ME SADNESS, LOSE FAITH IN IT, AND TO THINK I HAVE BEEN HURT BY THE SAME THING BY THE SAME PERSON SO MANY TIMES YET I CAN STILL BE SO NAIVE!!!!

ARGH!!!!!

YEAH, if you guess sumthing to with the heart. You are correct. I really hate IT!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!

I JUST HATE IT!!!!!!!! GOSH!!! YEAH....ITZ TRUE...

This morning, I cried because of sum crazy conversation. Yeah, getting green with envy, jealousy but I can still go on....Then, I tot it would just end there..BUT NO!

Around 4pm......I received this message which was like...wait till the situation gets better????? WHOA LAU! DID this person read my heart or what?! What situation? Does it involve me??? Does it have got to do with the person who din want us to be together again? Does it involve the third person who likes this person? WHAT?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!

24 HOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!

Whoa lau

2006-06-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hello Everybody!!!

Yeah, I realised my taggie has been silent..Guess itz my laziness to update everyday..Anywayz..

This week is like any other week...I am so in love yet so not in love..What the heck am I talking about...Yeah..Guess u have to figure it out urself. I aint gonna explain cuz I also dunnoe what the heck am I experiencing myself.

This week has been like a roller coaster..I was sick on wednesday with my teeth giving me problems and I just found out that I wont have any money cum end of the month again. I have book lessons for August weekend this time around using my May Payday..And next month, I am gonna fork out another 200 buckz for another round of choosing dates..My July pay, will be used for last min booking. 200 bucks can be used for 3 lessons which is good. So altogether if my maths is not wrong, I will take up 9 revision classes. Will that be enough. I shall see during my first Revision class due in July. I haven think of a date cuz like i said, itz used for last min booking. All I know, itz gonna be the last weekend of the month and the last lesson which is 3.45-5.30pm. I must look into bbdc every lunch time to get this slot cuz it HOT, HOT!!!

Anywayz..this week is better and I tink......Ever since nadia join the group, I feel much happier..at least therez sumone I can relate to...So yeah, I guess I am gonna stay a bit longer than planned but the future is still BLEAK...so...

Juz wait and see the POWER of GOD, TIME, FATE and DESTINY!!!!!!!!!!

Hey

2006-05-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hallo!!! This week is the beginning of the worst nightmare!! I mean...I juz realised something.....My team members hate me!!!! GOSH!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!! Luckily..Alhamdulillah therez a saviour...NADIA!!! Shez my new incharge..And I hate the CLEVER GUY!! I mean..he was so SARCASTIC when I made a SIMPLE mistake which I never realise!!!!

Gosh!!!!They hate me but itz ok..IT WAS MY FAULT..I din try to talk to them.I mean..I dunnoe..I was SUPER STRESSED WORKING!!!!! Nadia made it simpler..She will teach me what to do and I can come to her if I had any problem. I mean, there was FAVOURITISM going on in my team. I can see the difference of the way they treat each and everyone of us. Gosh!!! Never mind!!! I aint gonna stay longer than 2 years anywayz..My plan to stay in one company forever seems to be DASHED by these people!!!

Haiz!!!! So in order to let go of my stress....I TURN TO SHOPPING AND WATCHING MOVIE ALONE!! GOT THAT! ALONE!!

ALONE!!! I turned to all my friends at the last minute that they turned me down..Perhaps, I shouldnt do that. Learn my lesson now..It was fun watching X Men The Last Stand..It was SUPER GOOD!!!!! NO ONE BELIEVES ME WHEN I SAID I WAS WATCHING ALONE! Gosh! Haiz..I was super sad with my team mates that I have to go thru this by myself. It was great not thinking of the problems at work..

I wish I had a boyfriend who will be there in times like this. To him I will throw out my heart's desire and problems..Now that I am single, I cant just DASHED at my ex. He already had enough problems of his own. I will be adding to it.

Going to my best friend? Shez already attached..Thus, I cant really pin my hopes that high cuz she needs time with her current boy. As for my other best friend, fida, she also have problems of her own and as compared to mine, hers is much complicated then mine. Shant say it..All i know, I need to be strong to face this... God will only gives u problems which u can handle..

Hohoho

2006-05-21T22:13:00.000+08:00

Hallo!!!! When was the last time I blog? Last monday becuz I failed! The feeling of regret still lingers around me!!!

Anywayz, this week have been going great. I hope this coming week will be better. I am prepared to get scolded again. I mean, I din come back on saturday though I think I should have. Aiyah, never mind ar..I pass it on friday already. So I guess going to work on saturday will be suicidal. Id rather get scolded on weekdays rather than weekends cuz itz supposed to be pleasure day not working day.

Haiz...Again...this coming week, im prepared for the worst to come....Since therez no more scapegoat for him to scold. Haiz....save me!!!

Seriously, SAVE ME! All I know, I have to face it!!! The first thing to do is..To think of the worst that could have happened and think of how to relent it from happening! Yeah...The worst..then it wont be that bad if itz not what you imagined........

Okiez..I better go already..Since this life is normal in the WORKING WORLD!!!!! Working world is TOTALLY different from SCHOOL!!! Thats for sure!!!

Haiz....

2006-05-15T20:18:00.000+08:00

Hello peepz!!!!!

Itz been another week gone by...

Today I took my first attempt of practical lessons and I failed by 10 points..I really hate myself. All the mistakes that were made were all............................

MINOR MISTAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MINOR!!!

2 points for each mistakes that once accumulated became more than 20 points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Never mind..the next test date that I book is on 26th August. I hope I will pass taking into consideration all the MINOR MISTAKES!!!!! Seriously, that is what I am hoping for!!!!! The date is on a saturday cuz I dun want to waste my annual leave. Yeah, I wasted my annual leave today. I took a day off knowing I have to submit a correction of my measurement by this friday b4 5pm. Can I make it in time? I dun want to take a month to finish off my measurement!

I wasted my weekend again thus I start my work today. My weekend was spent slacking and of course cleaning up my dusty room. I dinnoe how dusty my room were till last weekend. Where do I have the time to clean my room when everyday I came back at 11pm feeling shagged! Haiz..I just hope this phase will go away!!!!

I need my licence before HARI RAYA!!! Reason being, I wanna drive a car by hari raya to visit all my relatives!!! No more taking buses!!! Insya'allah, dengan doa dari teman2, saya akan lulus pada kali ke-dua....

Please hope I passed this time round!!!!!Haiz...will update on it soon!!!!!

I know I failed but therez a thing called a next time. I hope I will make lesser minor mistakes in order to pass the next time around!!!!!!!

Chill out peepz..I wonder when will I blog again..I hope soon enough!!!

Heelllo

2006-05-07T18:58:00.000+08:00

Harlowz..Itz been what? 2 weeks since I last updated this thing...

Wellz..I have been busy...Also...I took my driving almost everyday now due to last minute booking..I din noe that itz that easy to get slots during office hours..Therez bound to be empty slots..Im still aiming for the 13,14 and 15th May slots. These 3 days are the most critical days yet I still have not found a slot. Letz see if this week I can get it..

Wellz..Everyday I find this job getting mundane(is that the word for boring?) Wokayz yeah..SUPER Boring! I just wished I could just quit and stay at home. I know that aint gonna happen cuz then there will be no income. I shall persevere for a while more. I thought I have no work. When therez work to do...It got super a lot that I dunnoe where to start....I shall persevere!!!!!

Yelpz for help! This past week, I received a call from B...Tat was quite a surprise. I mean, seriously I din expect him to call. The call from him was really a surprise. Really..it was..But he called during my busy period..Haiz..calling at the right time always..:) Reason: The call kinda give me the booster though I talk to him like I wanna quarrel with him. Haiz....

Yeah..entering the 2nd month of working and itz still the same. The feeling I had when I entered the company is losing itz energy!!!! Helpz!

Yelpz for help again! Tomorrow I have to submit everything to my senior and I have like 90% left to go!!!!! HELP!!

Wokayz..I tink I shall continue with it! I have lost one week!!!

Halo peepz

2006-04-15T22:32:00.001+08:00

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ya know peepz…I am so frustrated with myself!!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY, I AM!!!!!!

Ya know peepz!!! Me and my clever mind!! I thought that by booking a month earlier, the slots for booking a car would be empty. But, it turned out to be FULL!!!!!!!!!!! YELPS FOR HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I am super kanchiong and super uneasy!!!!

What did I do peepz?

I book all the last slot available for 8th May, 9th May and 10th May which is a week before my test. I am gonna put my money this 20th April to book last minute. The date I am aiming to book last minute is 15th May. This means that I am gonna book last minute during lunch period, going back time and in the morning!!!! I am so nervous now!! REALLY!! WHO WOULDN’T WHEN I HAVE PLAN SO NICELY HOW MY LESSONS SHOULD BE LIKE AND THEN, THERE WAS AN UNEXPECTED TWIST OF EVENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okok!!!!

This week is a HELLAWEEK for me cuz I received jobs by the most charming and smartest guy in my group!! Yeah…measurement and as usual variation works. Still, itz better than no work to do like last week!!!

I lurve working here yet at the same time, I dunnoe, it seems like I wont last long here. We shall wait and see how long I can stand staying at this workplace. One of my friends are already complaining…Still I haven been in her place so I dunnoe..I hope I can endure!!! Chill Out peepz!!!!

Hey2

2006-04-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

Initially I wanted to write about how stressed I am when I have no job to do..But oh wellz..Itz covered now...

Cuz...

I went shopping today!!!!! So unexpected!!!!

So yeah...where was I? This week has been the slackest week I ever had..I think I am gonna head for slacking period now..Anywayz..

Suddenly my train of thought run away...

Juz wanna say this is what I bought today:-

DVD cum VCR recorder(SWEET, need it in times like this)
MP3 player(was eyeing for it since ages)
2 black pants(another thing i needed)

All in all, it costs around $300 buckz...So expensive but I bought it WAY, WAY below itz Retail price.....not even half of the retail price...So it was WORTH IT!!!!

Till I see you again..Tataz!!!!

hAHAZ

2006-04-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

Hahaz….I received a shocking email this morning. It was sent last Friday but because of a reason or another, I couldn’t open the email.

Anywayz, the words that was being put in that email such as being a great gf?? Understanding and all??? Is it really true? I wonder…If I had been all that, why would he still think of another girl?? Head over toes with me??? He must be kidding me. Please dun joke with me, okiez. I am so not interested. If he were, then maybe, this situation might have had happen…

He would say bad things about me and then after which told me that actually he had loved me lot and that the love that he have given me could not be the same as any other girls that he is going to be with.

Or

Being the guy:

You know, I still misses you to be my girlfriend. You were the greatest gf that I have ever been with though I have been with so many girls before. (The verdict for this one: CRAZY FOOL and only crazy girls will believe this sentence.Reason is this one: "have been with so many girls")

That was what happen to my friends whom their ex’s loves them a lot and that they have been a great gf. That would be the scenario.

Whatever it is, I have given my honest reply as to why I wanted to be friends with him. The reason is I believe in forgive and forget. Actually this computer understands me pretty well. I had actually wanted to send out another post before this one and it died on me. It din want that post to be read by you guyz..

I dunnoe. I tried hating him but somehow or another…I just couldn’t. The fact that the name that appeared in the email was the girl whom he wanted to choose over me, I still couldn’t hate him. Juz what the hell is wrong with me?????? What????????

Haiz….how I really wish that I was the only girl whom he would have loved. Then this would have never happen. He was the only one thus I guess the damage that was caused by him was superbly bad. Shant say what the damage was but it has nothing to do with love cuz I still believe in it.

I remember this quote in my other post deleted by my computer...

Friendship equates to Relationship may or may not equates to Friendship once they broke up.

All I know..Im now...still in the rocky stage..Only time will tell if it equates to friendship or not...

Hahaz

2006-03-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

Hahaz! Today I received the most wonderful news ever or should I say the worst news ever!? Okokok..Should I tell you peepz??? Yeah. I was under an illusion all this while but yet..........OH WELLZ! It was a lie. All that I have hoped for was a lie...I was being fooled all this while!!!! WHY ME!WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anywayz..letz put that aside.....So yeah...Thanx kpo for making a comeback. U will comeback when I need you yeah? I wonder what..No matter whether u r a girl or boy, why not we make friends?? See ya in MSN sooon!

So today...I had the most boring day ever in my life. So...seriously speaking I din realised that I have a boring life till today. My weekends are spent at home...Actually I have a wishlist for my birthday...246...But I know..some of them are juz impossible to happen...so this is what it is...

to receive a call from him giving me a birthday wish(negative)
to receive birthday wishes from my friends juz like last 246(a bit positive)
to receive birthday presents at least from my closest friends(positive)
to be happy with my working life(a bit positive yet negative)

So yeah...thatz all for now..I juz realised itz the second post for the day which means..itz not the shortest post yet...

Hmmm

2006-03-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

Itz been two weeks and I have seen a bit of how dangerous and fierce my boss can be. Seriously, if I were in that position getting a whole load of scoldings from my boss, I will cry. So I read the blog again....And again I was dissappointed. I put the feelings aside today just to ask him an old friend's number which I lost.

So I have been thinking, I read it yesterday and I was feeling a bit down. Even techno and fast songs cant liven things up. Today, in the morning, I try my very best to phrase the words correctly in my brain on how am I supposed to bring the message out to him so that it wont sound mean. I think it was mean. Whatever it is, he would never understand me as much as I could never understand him.

Haiz...seriously....I really dunnoe how he would react when he read but I can basically can roughly gauge how he would feel. Itz ok...I am fine now...All I know...I was in a happy mood last wednesday and because I read the blog, I was down.

I passed and I am going to grad from Singapore Polytechnic. I should be happy cuz.....the results was unexpected. I studied really hard for the sem paper and therez a A,B,C,D again....Every year...sure have A,B,C,D....Haiz...Itz fated I guess to have all the alphabets in my result slip. Itz been like that ever since PSLE. I also got A,B,C,D...Haiz...................................................

So anywayz...the hard work that was put in the Final Year Project which make me stayed overnight was being paid. Though we din get A for it but we got B + for it! I was so elated, REALLY for my FYP. But all was spoilt just by reading the blog. The week have been so frustrated juzt by reading the blog. Seriously, I dunnoe why is he making a fuss of what I said when I already mentioned in the past blog...He has let go of me. Period. All this while I know itz been a one way affair. All my reminincing have been gone ONE WAY AFFAIR.....Itz no longer the same...

First week of work

2006-03-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

Well2, I just realised something. But..Oh never mind..Seriously, whoever who read the multiply blog, itz the truth. In fact, today, I did reminince the time with him yet again while on the way home..Haiz...........Oh wellz, I just hope one thing to happen for now..That our paths will cross again somehow...Yeah..I did wish for something on my first day of work last monday but it din happen. I actually wished that he would give me a call or at least msg me a good luck wish last monday. Haiz..Stupidity me!

Wellz...anywayz....the first week of work.....

I can expect this in future:-

Scoldings from my superior cuz im a super slow worker
to stay overnights in the office till the wee mornings
stresses due to forgetting how to do measurements
stresses due to working with a superior who pushes his workers to work(in a way, itz good cuz I can only work by people pushing me to work)

Yeah...u can guess it..Fortunately for me, I am assisting Mdm Annie who have been teaching me stuffs which I dont understand. She teaches great and in detail so that I can understand what she teaches. Seriously, everyday, I seem to ask her questions bout the measurement. I am dissappointed with myself actually cuz I am given an architect's drawing to measure which is my forte back in poly but now, NOW I seem to forget almost everything that I have learnt. I have to go through my poly notes(seems like lacking something), the SMM book and loads more. How I wish I have been like a top student, then I wont be like struggling now...At the rate I am going, I think I will be going for my further studies like next two years instead of the current plan of next year.

Yeah,all I know, today feels like a day I could blog. I dunnoe when I can blog again somehow..Letz see the time table yeah.....I hope I can last in this company forever or at least 5 years. I mean my aim in this company is to get promoted by the end of the 5 years I am working in DLS. Yeah..I dun aim that super high..I know myself better than others..Thus, being slow and can only work when being pushed by others, I guess itz gonna take me years to go up...

Haiz...wish me luck..Take care peepz of urself while I am away yeah........I am so looking forward to tomorrow!!! Yeah..Itz FRIDAY!

The trip to Sabah

2006-03-11T18:32:00.000+08:00

Hmmm....itz been a week since I last blogged...I haven got the chance to blog at my sis's place so here I am back in Singapore feeling tired and blogging about the trip... For pictures please go toScenery:- http://shanurda85.multiply.com/photos/album/13
Family:- http://shanurda85.multiply.com/photos/album/15
Letz begin with where I left at the last post. I was on the plane alone and gez what I saw on the plane? LOADS and LOADS of HANDSOME, CUTE Caucasian guyz! There was this cute one which I somehow took a little fancy on. The reason why I took a careful look on this guy was becuz I embarrassed myself in front of him. The embarrassing moment which he saw was me being very naïve about my eyes. I slept while I was on the standby room and thus when I woke up I look at the glass reflections of my eyes. When I turn to my left to head for the door, there he is, Looking, SMILING at me! I was shocked. A cute guy laughing at me for my naïve-ness! He gave way to me as I was in front of him then. So embarrassing! I wonder what he has in mind while he saw me doing that. Upon reaching Sabah, I had to leave my memories of him behind. So wasted! I should have taken a photo of me and him!!!!! Haiz...never mind, nice to look at but I can never have him.

Enough bout cute caucasion guyz back to my story…

This trip is about visiting my sister and my nephews whom I haven met them for a year now. Its super, duper LONG! I spent most of time here sleeping and oh my, I dream of my ex like twice??? Haiz, perhaps, I am too weak. I should let go. I should. I really should. So yeah…where was I? I was lost there a bit.

Hmmm…..Yeah, spending my time here sleeping like a log and watching tv and eat. On one of the days, we went shopping downtown. It was shopping for souvenirs yet I cant find any that caught my eyes. All I see is juz jewellery which I bought for my closest friends namely, Norhafidah, Yasmin and Norliana. As for the rest, Sorry yeah, there was none that caught my eyes. Unless I go to the Putatan Market, I could have bought you guyz loads of nice butterflies like in my room. I bought myself a REHAL: a holder to place the holy book, Al-Quran and a ring for myself.

Then, on Thursday, we went to the Kinabalu Park which is super cool yet a lot of ADVENTURES. I really mean ADVENTURE! When you wanna go there, prepare yourselves to ride through fogs aka clouds. Its true, REALLY true. I mean all you could see is jus white fogs and you cant even see the road in front of you!!!! Imagine the driver who drove the van! One must drive carefully yet there are cars overtaking our van! Imagine that!!!!!Luckily, it was on our back home and I am sleeping at the back with my nephews. On the way there, we took loads of wonderful scenery view!!!!!!!!

First stop is the park, we went to the highest peak (without climbing) to see the Mount Kinabalu known as the highest mountain in the region. I am so gonna climb the mountain the next time I am going. Then, we move towards the next stop which is to the museum. Therez nothing much in here to tell, REALLY.
The last stop before we head home is the Hot Spring. While my sister’s family are bathing in the hot spring, I went to the Canopy Walkway where you have to walk through the bridge over the trees. It is super scary! You have to climb 550m to reach the bridge. Even our highest hill of bukit timah is not that tall! The thing is we did not climb through the roads like the bukit timah trail; we have to climb through the available footsteps given! We have to walk past by the rainforest! The scenery, WONDERFUL! The journey, TIRING juz to get to the bridge.

After 10 mins or maybe less of climbing, we finally reach the bridge. Oh My! The bridge, is super duper HIGH and LONG! It stands at 550m high above ground and its around 157m long. Isnt that long?? The bridge is not even like the normal bridge. Its very shaky and not for those who have a phobia of heights! The view is MAGNIFICENT! There are photos which I uploaded in multiply so you can see the magnificent view. You should go!!!!

Yeah, after the walk at the canopy walkway, we head back home. The journey is great!!!!

Yeah, that was Thursday itenary..It was the longest day ever as we spent it outside.

Friday is the journey home…

Till I blogged again…….take care…

2006-03-10T21:07:00.000+08:00

You scored as Physics. You once had dreams of learning how everything worked. But now your dreams are shattered in a wealth of incomprehensible mathematics. You still like messing about with lasers, but it all seems hard work now and not as much fun as it used to be.

Physics

88%

Engineering

81%

Psychology

75%

History

69%

Biology

63%

Maths

56%

Chemistry

56%

Modern Languages

50%

Philosophy

50%

Classics

50%

Theology

44%

English Literature

38%

Law

38%

Computer Science

25%

What degree should you have done?
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The girls nite out

2006-03-06T14:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the most wonderful day of my life! There was a so-called girls nite out at my house yesterday! It was fun and exciting.It started out quite late around 6.30pm with me meeting up Yasmin at Teck Whye LRT stn.

We decided to watch Underworld Evolution. For those who are religious minded, this show is totally not for you! Itz super un-censored! But it was great somehow or another juz the S part was the unknown. I still cant figure out why there is a S scene in the story.

After which, I walked to my home with Yasmin to watch some gilmore girls that was missed earlier. At around 10pm,Liana and her sister came over to my place. It was hilarious and I dun think I can handle guests. I hope they enjoy my company though.

So yeah, everything started off when Liana was in my house. Initially, Yasmin din want to stay over but because it was SUPER-DUPER late, she decided to sleep over. We began to cook nuggets and fried rice to be served. Yasmin did the cooking of fried rice while me and liana did the nuggets. All I remember right now, after cooking, we watched Erlin Montel shown on Suria at 9.30pm which were also missed earlier in the day.

So yeah, when the show was over, it was bedtime which was around 2am++. Yasmin wanted to sleep in the sofa which I objects but since she insist, I let her do so. The two sisters slept over at my room while I sleep at my parent's room.

So yeah, tatz the story of yesterday.

Today, I had my first taste of driving lesson after one month of not practicing. Thank Goodness I still remember how to drive!!!!! But all is not lost, I drove POORLY! Hahaz!!! It was great cuz I met my old instructor, Mr Koh!!!

Yeah, tatz the event I have for you now...

Oh yeah, I am going to Sabah today and could only be reached at my old number of
9139....(fill in the blankz)

Till I blog again at my sis's place(c if i can), Bubbye and take care dude and dudettes!!!!

The BIG WALK

2006-03-04T13:26:00.000+08:00

Hahaz!! Told you guyz I am gonna walk till Pasir Ris ryte yesterday? The bad news is we din managed to walk till pasir ris but....

WE WALKED TILL SINGAPORE EXPO HALL 5!!!

It took us around 8 hours of walk...By the time I reached Jurong mrt station, I cannot walk! DARN!!! Yelpz for help!! Today, I had a painful hip disorder aka sakit pinggang?? But dun worry, I can make it tomorrow for CYCLING!! mcm tak boleh, tapi Ill try and bolehkan..hahaz!

Wokayz..this walk is the BIG WALK!!! The reason why we stopped at Singapore Expo is becuz we were dead lost??? We took a bus at Singapore Expo. Actually, if we took a walk thru the Changi General Hospital, I tink we can make it till Simei. Itz ok, at least we make it thru!! I think I told Amanina n her friends that I stopped at Eunos..Sorry guyz..wrg stop ar..

I showed them photos to be uploaded in Multiply soon!!! As we walked, we saw the old buildings again and I took the picture of the SHACKED house which is undergoing some sort of renovation or demolition work. The reason as to how I know is becuz this time, i saw hoardings aka barricades surrounding the buildings.

Then, as we walked past thru Chinatown, we saw this SUPERBLY cheap store selling stuffs at a rate of 3 FOR $10!!!! Where can u get that kind of stuffs?! I tell you guyz this store is really selling good, GOOD stuffs!!!!!!! I mean, the stuffs if you bought it at Bugis will cost you between $9.90-$19.90. So where else should you go to get these stuffs for super CHEAP prices? CHINATOWN!!!! Itz been in Chinatown for a whopping 3 YEARS and goodness gracious, it wasnt shown on tv nor newspaper nor has anyone knew about it!!

SEE, SEE!! THEREZ MORE TO SEE THAN THIS!!!

Then,as we reached the Esplanade, I saw something that caught my eyes.. Some of the panels were straight and that it wasnt put at an angle as compared to the rest of the panels..Look at the picture in multiply..Ill give you the webby at the end of this post..See another remarkable photos by Sharifah..

After town is the Kallang River, we took some pictures at the Kallang river with me and my tired face!! Hahaz..I am already tired by the time I reached Kallang but I have to persevere in order to reach Pasir Ris!!!

At Geylang area...I dinnoe that there were also old houses there!! Gosh! Another thing found in Singapore!!! Fuh!! Isnt it fun!! Knowing your own country which all of us took for granted??? We should learn more about such stuffs so that we could tell the tourists more about the country!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am lurving it!!!!I passed by my old attachment company, Premas International at Technopark @ Chai Chee!! I was delighted..If only fida will let me go in and meet my old colleagues back in attachment days! As I say, I am delighted!!! I am superbly happy!!!

SAY....

HIP,HIP!

HOORAY!!!!!!

SAY...

CONGRATULATIONS FOR MAKING THROUGH AROUND SINGAPORE!!!

WAIT!

Did I mention that a lot of tourists were actually laughing at me because I took a picture like I am like them myself???? Did I mention that as I passed Raffles River and Esplanade my mind was over to my charming and wonderful ex of mine??? Did I mention that we din took the normal route like we usually do from Outram to City Hall?? Did I mention that we took a picture per station when we left off but stop cuz we were tired???

Yeah...So..again!

Hip, Hip Hooray!!!!

Give a round of applause to Sharifah Nurulhuda and Norhafidah Marican for making it possible to walk from Dover MRT to Tanah Merah MRT and stop at Singapore Expo Hall 5!!!!!!!!!!!

Pictures from multiply:-
http://shanurda85.multiply.com/photos/album/12
Pictures from Photobucket:-
http://photobucket.com/albums/y6/shanurda85/The%20Big%20Walk/

2006-03-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

Wokayz...

I intended to write this post yesterday but perhapz I wasnt in the mood so I postponed it today. Of cuz, today, I am really not in the mood!!

Since itz no mood..i shall declare this post as the shortest this month..Saying that...

MY EXAMS IS OVER!!

I am supposed to be elated but I am not cuz...

I am leaving this skewl for the working world.....

Haiz.....

Kewl event

2006-02-26T20:46:00.000+08:00

Hallo guyz..Soon, the picture of me without tudung will be off....Aha!

Wokayz...So yesterday was SUPER-LICIOUS long day and GREAT and I really mean GREAT event for me!!!! I dunnoe what did my friend did on his bdae but I guess sending him 1 same bdae card to all his email address which is TOTALLY intended would brightened things up.

The event started off EARLY in the morning at 7am. There was a sports event for the madrasah kids yesterday. Isnt that cool? I was in the same team as Asya'rie, Amin, Ust Farez and Farah. We were in charge of Pri 1 and Pri 2 kids. They were super naughty but fun?? I supported the wrong team cuz the winning team is the red team which is SUPERBLY hyper team as compared to the Yellow team. Ooopz, I should mention the teams first ryte? Yeah, the teams are Red, Yellow, Green and BLUE!!!! So after the sports day event, there was a SUPER short meeting to discuss the one day event held by the Al-Iman Youth Wing before we head for our lunch sponsored by the mosque. While waiting for food to be served, there was an interviewing session with the teachers in the mosque. So after much interrogation, I found a lot of stuffs about the concept of minahs and matz. Since they are alwayz talking about minahs and matz.

At around 1pm- 5pm, it was so MENDAK cuz I have to wait for 6.45pm to come as there is a Youth Leaders Network sleepover at Al-Iman mosque.So what did I do? I sleep instead of studying for my term test. The reason why I sleep is because I couldnt sleep the night before. Before you guyz think I din read through, you are so wrong. I did read through the notes to get a grasp of what am gonna study and how am I gonna write my notes. I write notes the day before my exams so that the morning before the exams, I can revise. Fortunately for me, this coming one, has a lot of maths rather than theory. If not, I think I am gonna die cuz with one week of not studying for my exams,Itz gonna be mendak!

The sleepover was superbly FUN! Though my close friend who WAS supposed to accompany me back out at the very LAST minute, I did make some new friends. Yeah, we learn about reasons being a youth in the mosque, the responsibilities of being a youth leader and also learn that we need to come out with POWERFUL events that suits the public youth's to make an impact and make them stay or be a youth in the mosque themselves.

At night, we slept for one hour, from 3am-4am. From 12am-3am, we talked about lots of stuffs. As there were no ADULTS taking care of girls unlike the boys,we took the opportunity and took some time out to the nearest 7-11 stall near the mosque. We watched a little of tv and talked about the kind of guyz that we should look for as a companion. We also talked about some religious stuff which I forgot.

I think the boys also have their share of sharing session. I heard it lasted till 4am. Ours ended at 3am cuz some of us was tired and we decided to take a short one hour nap. So there you go, all of us are practically tired when the day ends.

The best thing that came out from this sleepover event makes me reflects me of my responsibility as a muslim youth to the community. Did you guys know that our generation is at risks of being the last generation?? For those who are muslims, read up the signs of doomsday and relate back to what you see now. Just reflect on it, wokayz?? All I know, its getting scarier year by year.

Yeah, I guess thatz it boyz and gerls!!! Just reflect on it. I am not a perfect person...I do make mistakes. We should remind each other of the responsibility that have been undertaken by us.

Sad news

2006-02-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

Wokayz...I shall start listening to FAST music..i mean REALLY FAST to lift this spirit up! I received 2 SAD news today...TWO!

Wokayz.... so the sad news is..

the bdae event was cancelled...(so sad..though the person din invite me, i really hope he had fun on his bdae)
my crush has already have a girlfriend...(i DUN break relationships)

So yeah...The worst was the second one ar..I was shattered..Itz ok..Itz only a crush which will go away some day at some point of time..haiz..Fortunately, itz only 14 days since I had a crush on this person..Itz ok. I can live on..Dun worry bout me..

As expected when this afternoon, I was really stumped for words. It really is true. I really cant talk to this person anymore.DARN, DARN AND DARN!!!! WHY!?!?!?! IS THIS NORMAL?? I really hope itz normal. I mean we used to have a lot and lotz of things to talk about till diz morning, I dunnoe what to say to this person. My answers are like DIRECT AND ONE sentence. SHUCKZ AND SHUCKZ!!! WHY!? How I wish it wont end this way?? Gosh! I want it to be the same like the old time, I REALLY DO...Perhapz, itz juz a feeling. Perhaps itz just a dream. It will pass..I will talk to him like normal soon enough..It will pass..

Wokayz..so long as I keep that in touch, I shall and I will talk to like normal tomorrow or perhapz even now? Wokayz..Keep Psyco-ing MYSELF now..

Now2, I have nothing more left to say except How does my new layout look? Ok a not? Give a reply yeah!!

What the heck

2006-02-22T00:31:00.000+08:00

Hello peepz!!! How are you today??? I hope you guyz are doing fine! Again, I am awake in the wee hours in the morning doing blogging and chatting.

So yeah, I just received news that somebody had a bday event and din invite me. Seriously, I dun feel anything about it cuz I think itz expected. Hahaz...I mean, the signs are clear what. So now, should I wish this person a bdae wish after a month of not talking and not to forget, I SEEM TO FORGET HOW TO TALK TO THIS PERSON! Itz ok, I read the blog and I know itz not referring to me but at the same time, when I read again, seems like referring to me..Whatever..All I know, he have let go of me, PERIOD.

So yeah..actually, thatz not the news im supposed to tell u! Itz juz there to let that person read it...Hahaz..I am mean, what can I say? Hahaz!

The real news is..........I want to reminince the time since Primary Skewl till Now but then, when I just heard the news like a few minutes ago..Itz lost in the air....Hahaz..so there you go! No, I promise will tell you once I have the story lined up..Muz think and THINK how to make it as short as possible..Hahaz..like I ever wrote a small entry! Yeah, I did once..to tell you guyz about ma trip to NZ and Sabah or izzit, the exam period? Hahaz..I dunnoe..

Speaking of trips, I am gonna go visit my sister in SABAH this 6th March!!! Wish me LUCK!!!!!!! As you guyz know or din know, my nephews couldnt make it here cuz my sis's pregnancy cant take any travelling..Haiz..so sad! I was so elated when they wanted to stay over at my place! I hope this trip will be memorable, OF CUZ IT WILL BE! Reason:

I am meeting my nephews
My sis has plans to go and stay over at the chalet at the foot of Mount Kinabalu..SWEETNESS!!!
I am gonna make this trip a trip to really let go of the person and live a new life(gonna work once I reached singapore)

Isnt that kewl..The best part is of cuz to stay over at the FOOT of Mount Kinabalu, the highest mountain in the South East Asian Region.How cool is that!!!!!! Very!!!!!! So the holiday week is a week WELL SPENT!!!!!

So yeah there you go...I make a promise to myself and this time I will make it work! So herez a thing I remembered from Dr Fadhilah(the motivator person)

Today should be as good or better than yesterday
If it isnt, therez sumthing wrong with your day..

So! There you go! I should make each day as best as it could! With the motivation posters right in front of me...Take each day at a time for a day will be lost if you dun make full use of it! I will be happier so long as I keep those sucky feelings aside! Yeah, so i still have feelings for that ex of mine but if I keep holding on, I will cry and cry and in the end, I dun gain anything. I should feel happy that I have friends who still care for me! Another beginning of letting go!!! Soon, it will be just a past which I could rely on to learn and get that prince charming of mine till death do us part...

Whoawhoawhoa!!!

2006-02-20T11:20:00.000+08:00

Whoa!!!!!I am so happy and free right now!!!!!!!Guess what happen!!! Yesterday was the funniest day I have ever had in YEARS!!!! I was laughing and laughing and laughing and wokayz juz repeat the laughing 10000000000 times okey? Hahaz!

So yeah, earlier in the morning was a great experience which I am not going disclose to you guyz...so yeah, thatz it for the morning session..All I know, it was nerve wrecking and hilarious for my thing.

The afternoon session, I went canoeing or issit kayakking. Whatever, started of with meeting the guyz and galz at Woodlands Interchange. Yeah, the guy whom I have a MAJOR crush was there!!! Hez so cute and so handsome, I tell you guyz!!!! Gosh!!! Hez the one which fits like everything in my list. But my best friend, yasmin, told me, you will only get to know the person if you get close to him. He may not be that close to me but I will get to get close to him with the frequent meetings in the mosque. Yeah! Cant wait...but with a career coming up, I wonder...Hmmmmmm.........

So yeah, the kayakking event was the funniest. I was kayakking with Yasmin with she in front and i am at the back. So yeah, the man whom I have a crush on with Husnie(my junior), push our boat to sea. See2!! How happy I was? Very!! So we were off to sea.. Guess what happen?! Few minutes to ponder yeah?

While the rest of the group is very far from us, we were still stuck at the middle of the sea moving around in circle. Hahahz! I was laughing when we started turning and turning for the first 10 mins of the kayakking session!!! Finally, we decided that we should paddle together in unison. And VOILA, we finally move straight with the waves making us move in circles again..Hahahaz!!!

In the middle of our session, we release our stress with SHOUTING!!!!!!!!! Shout our lungs out! That was fun and stress-relieving. Of cuz, by laughing alone helps to release those stress!!! Ryte guyz! And this is just the beginning of me moving on!!! Yeah!!!!

At the end of it all, we ate at Marine Parade food centre. That was fun! I couldnt believe my eyes when I saw almost, ALMOST everyone incl. my crush had at least 2 servings of food! That does not include Desserts! Whoa lau! That was like, WOW! I cant even finish my servings of food. Reason: Stress period = small stomach

WoW!!! By the time I reached home, I was really tired to even start studying for my CPM paper due tomorrow! All the best to all my QS mates!!!! Cya guyz soon!!!!!

Yeah!

2006-02-17T23:43:00.000+08:00

Wokayz, as you guyz know, i am crazy..So yeah, this week I am a little bit gone case ar!!! Hahaz!!!!!!!

Rite! One week has passed with a little glitch on tuesday..Ya know it feels like this week is the LONGEST week that I have. Guess the reason? Of cuz, itz the exam period! Ya know, I tot I blogged the V-dae post last week when the fact is I blog it this week. It only seems like yesterday I got attached and broke up with someone. But now, I guess that blog sumhow or another make me let go of the person. So yeah, I feel a little bit of freedom. So there you go...Give myself a chance!

So yeah, this week has been a HELLA OF A WEEK! I have been scrimping all through my notes for my exams and it sux a lot that by friday, today, I have information overload inside my BRAIN that I feel like coughing out vomit from my mouth. I am so gonna run tomorrow to let this stress out...

Literature Period PLEASE......Hahaz :P

This week has been like a war to me. I have survived the war by typing this letters as I write. This war is a matter of whether you make it or you break it. Its a pass for the future of my life. I hope I will win the war. It all depends on how the invaders grade this war.

Understand the paragraph? If you don't understand, its ok. I think of exams as a war. Hahaz!!! Lurve everyone! See, i am going bonkers! Lurve you guyz for making move on..especially to Norhafidah Marican and....Norliana Ahmad!!! You guyz are the people who make me see the light that he is not the only guy in this world. Live life to the fullest they say!

Cant Sleep

2006-02-14T01:41:00.000+08:00

Wellz...the time now is 1.39am on the 14th February 2006..So you guyz must be wondering why am I still up and kicking at this hour when I am supposed to be asleep or at least study for estimating costing due tomorrow,15th February(24hours left and counting)...

Wellz..the reason is probably itz V-dae or Friendship day. Haiz...so what have I been doing for the last 2 years..Wokayz, those 2 years I have a boyfriend but now I am celebrating it as a singleton. I cant believe it but never mind, I have to believe it. I mean, there WAS a reason and a blessings. Those years was great but never o mind, I din do much to make him realised how much i love him... If you were to ask how I know, the reason lies in his blog. I mean, he could mention that..Oh....juz read it urself! The more I think about it, the more frustrated and sad I become. As a girl, I guess thatz a normal reaction. In my mind is a whirl of questions running as I remember each bit of sentence he types. Am I dreaming or am I not? Am I just plain stupid and stubborn to realise the truth?? Why cant I just let go and let him live his life peacefully?? He did, i know he did...haiz...

Haiz...I need someone to just trigger the light to make me concentrate on my studies and not think about it. So far, I found one. Yeah, you guess it right. Hafiz asked me a lot of questions the other day about CT and I realised I dunnoe a single thing! Thus, I took out my notes and study and understand till I can explain to him in DETAIL about the questions that he asked me. So yeah, for a moment there, yesterday nite at around 11pm, I shut my mind from love. I dunnoe why it trigger back today. Guess people around me wishing me valentine's day make me relive the moments of yesteryear...From single to couple to single again......OMG, am I really thinking of last year and the previous year??? Shuckz, I did?? I lost track of time..

I am so over this, I tell you guyz but I just cant help thinking about it. I should let it go. If its meant to be, it will come back. As far as the way I look at it, it will never come back. Itz ok, this is what I called reality. I cant expect all love life to be like in fairy tales. I used to think that way when suddenly the pain is just so hard to bear knowing that someone you love actually.....(fill in the blanks yourself). Yeah....reality hurts. I shall just take it in my stride that everything started of with me and I deserve to get this pain.

Yet again, I shall be strong and stay strong. Itz not for my friends, itz for the best of me. I should and I have to!!!

Halo again

2006-02-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

Hey2!!!!!! Itz ma second post for the day!!

Wo..kayz! So in the last paragraph in the last post(if u bother to read), i mention i was a bit sad and heartbroken. Again, ma close friends who knows about the story will cheer me up. Thatz why I turn to them for solitude. They will mend the heart but they wont make it go away. I will try my bery best that whatever happens has a reason. Fortunately, these group of close friends will be my colleagues soon come 3rd April!!!!!

The reason why I wrote a second post is not because of the last paragraph of the last post.

Rather, itz about me walking again from Dover MRT to Lavender MRT. Isnt it an improvement from Bugis?? Wokayz, we took short cuts again. We took another route which is much, MUCH nearer than the previous week. The diff is we pass thru Chinatown and Clarke Quay instead of following the MRT line of going thru Tanjong Pagar to get to City Hall MRT station. Itz much more nearer. Seriously, you should walk with us and go crazy. In fact, I think the walk helps to ease the pain that I felt earlier this morning. All I know, my instincts was correct right from 25th June 2004. OF COURSE, I din trust my instincts then. I should but never mind. Once done, it cannot be undone.

This walk is much, MUCH interesting than the previous one. Summary please:-

Saw a lot of ang-mohs/mat salleh/europeans passing us by!
Read the map practically at every station from Outram MRT
Saw a lot of costumes shop from Bugis to Lavender
went to this Arabic Restaurant to check out the prices at bugis
Xchanged our shoes at city hall
sang our way thruout the journey(i was silent most of the time cuz I was thinking of what I read)

Wokayz, if you think we stop at Lavender and go home, You are SO wrong! We went to Paya Lebar to buy some cloth for ourselves. Initially wanted to walk till paya lebar, but because we were rushing for time we took mrt. Fida bought this satin cloth for her brother's engagement while I bought this kain bekung for my sister's future child in Sabah. Wokayz..NEWS please!

We saw an old man fall flat to the ground in front of Tanjong Katong Complex! That was scary! I was so emotional that I nearly cried. He was lying side ways flat. There was blood on his right cheek and his nose. We believe he trip and fall from the ground. Luckily, there was this good hearted man to help him. We stayed for a short while when we decided that young man, could handle the old man. Yeah, he called the ambulance for help. We(the passers-by who saw he fall) were scared cuz I think when he first fell down, he had a concussion. He was like couldnt talk, nor bring himself up. Haiz..that was the main event and the first encounter with a situation liddat.

Yeah, how bout tat?? A lot and lot of news if you walk around Singapore. Did you know that you have to be a tourist in Singapore to enjoy the small little things that makes Singapore an interesting place to be.

Yeah, the pain may be gone but I shall be strong to accept fate. Thanx to all ma friends who cheers me up when I am in pain. I will do the same to you guyz cuz u guyz are the true friends of mine. God have interesting ways to make you see the light. Bubbye for now..I guess if I have news like this, I will post again! Till then, cya around soon!!!!

Hey2

2006-02-08T11:37:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!

Wokayz, exams are like less than a week! I am superbly stressed cuz I haven study a thing yet?? So much for studying early! Hahz! Haiz...I am stressed..If only therez ma stressed buster, CHOCOLATES,love, VANILLA and happy people surrounding me?

Wo...kayz..so the previous post state that I still haven gotten over him BUT fret not, with the exams like around the corner, WHICH I like very the much( THANK YOU GOD!) to let me burn down the sorrow by keeping me busy, busy and BUSY with my mugging for exams. I need as much As and Bs for this exams. I will try my best and get at least 70% for each and every paper to pull the grade up!!! I have done pretty badly for some of my modules which SUX a lot. Reason for the results is of cuz, FYP! Darn FYP! Bcuz of that, I lost my concentration to study! Lucky me, itz over now!!

Gez who I saw today at FC3 just now?I saw Lincoln~~~ Lincoln is the one who join this Star Idol which is shown on CH8 tonite at 8pm. Watch him act and vote for him! Voting session ends around 10pm I think. All I know, I am voting for him. I dinnoe hez from SP and GOSH, I din vote for him cuz of SP, I vote for him cuz hez cute!!!!!!!!

Ya know, after so long, my little heart of mine keeps saying something that I could not believe. A while ago, before I blog this entry, I read something which kept me thinking, REALLY. I think whatever the little heart say was true after all and I din make a mistake about it. Gosh! I should have trusted it a LONG, LONG time ago!! And to think, I broke it like too many times for not listening to it. Itz ok if you dun understand this part cuz I know what I am saying.

Dedicated to Ah B...

2006-02-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

This 2 songs lyric are meant for someone to read..Ok la..itz B..I dunnoe if he still comes to my blog anymore..Happy reading or singing if you know the tune..

Sacrifice by T.a.T.u

Can you tell me, softly
How you'll always haunt me
Can you help me
Hold me
Come to me now, slowly
You caress me, smoothly
Calm my fears and soothe me
Move your hands across me
Take my worries from me

**Chorus**
I will sacrifice
I will sacrifice
All I have in life
To clear my conscience
I will sacrifice
I will sacrifice
All I have in life
Sacrifice, sacrifice
**end of chorus**

Can you feel me, solely
Deeper still and wholly
With your understanding
And your arms around me
Can you help me
Hold me
Whisper to me, softly
Move your hands across me
Take my worries from me

back to chorus

We Shout by T.a.T.u

I will forget my dreams
Nothing is what it seems
I will effect you
I will protect you
From all the crazy schemes

You traded in your wings
For everything freedom brings
You never left me
You never let me

See what this feeling means
Everything that you feel
Is everything that I feel
So when we dream
We shout...
We shout...

You say it's all complex
Passion can pass for less
We never bothered
Telling each other
What we were bound to guess

Will anybody care
We could go anywhere
Going through danger
Talking to strangers
Will there be someone there

Everything that you feel
Is everything that I feel
So when we dream
We shout...4 x

I dunnoe why when I listen to Tatu songs I became very emotional. Perhaps they are telling a story of what I am going thru in their new album. All I know, I din regret buying their cd!

Whenever I listen to their songs, there will only be one person in my mind. All I know, therez no turning back to the past coz itz not worth it. I tried to move on but I cant. I turn to my friends for solitude to make me forget the pain thats inside of me. How I wish, they could make it go away.... Perhapz, this is what they say the pain of love or perhaps I am just plain stubborn of the fact that he and I are not going to be together no matter how hard we try.*sobs, sobs*

Haiz...the reason why I wrote this at the end of the whole lyrics is because I find that only a minority will scroll to the end....will he read this part? Only HE knows.........

Whoo Hoo

2006-02-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

Today markz the greatest outing before EXAMINATIONS!!! So in one week's time is the exam? I dont care at all...All I know, I am gonna start mugging cum weekend! Itz the exams!

Today's itenary:

Class as per norm
After class, went to Swenson's for Lunch using class fund and some of our own money of cuz..(class fund is only $6.50)
Went to watch a movie at Lido which initially wanted to watch Cheaper by the Dozen 2 but this story that we watch, Fun with Dick and Jane was better
Went shopping at Orchard
Went and lepakz for 30mins flat at Takashimaya watching the stars and talking about Doomsday(again) and what will happen after we die(something new but related to doomsday)??

So yeah, thatz basically the stuff that we the 5 girls did...Who are the five girls, they are, Fidah, Sharina, Wirda, Farah and me! Farah left us for her friends when we were slacking at Takashimaya.

Happening ryte? I shant tell you what really happen but please go to this website for a review of Fun with Dick and Jane. ---->http://shanurda85.multiply.com/reviews

Happy studying peepz or shud I say Happy Mugging for the Exams for all the SP students and all students who are taking their exams this month!!!!!!!!!!!

May we all graduate with FLYING COLOURS to all the graduates of Polytechnic Students!!!!!

Awal Muharram

2006-01-30T13:51:00.000+08:00

Hello peepz~~~

Tomorrow will marked the New Year of Islamic Calender. Thus, today there will be a lot prayers cum doa session for all the Mosques in Singapore. As usual, I will mark my resolution now(agama) and on my birthday(being old)....So the resolution for this coming year is:-

To start doing the 5 prayers( the basic yet it holds the most sin if we neglect it) and stop procrastinating on the prayers..Insya'allah
Stop procrastinating with my homework(really, ma frens are scolding me as i dun used to be like that)
Be more hardworking, be it at home or outside(slacking too much eh?)
Stop gossiping about artistes(they are also human beings like us, nuthin special bout them)
start going to mosques for any syarahan or forum
start being active in the muslim youth( i tink i can with the new kid on the block)
start calling back all my old friends whom i lost contact with(where r you??)
stop shouting(or is it i juz have a loud voice??)
start listening to Nasyid(lost contact with nasyid songs)
to pay back my past fasting which i left when i was having menstruation as fast as possible as Ramadhan is only around the corner.(when ar??)

Yeah...I guess thatz it... I really cant think of any...So yeah...I wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year and Happy New Year to all people!!!!

The half-walkathon

2006-01-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

Hehez....Hahaz....STOP!

Wokayz...I am going to tell this to you guys but please take a deep, DEEP, DEEEP breath okz?

Have you taken your deep, DEEP, DEEEEEEP BREATH???

Here goes...

Fida and I went to WALK from Dover MRT to Bugis MRT yesterday. Wokayz..

did that shocked you guys?
Did you guys say we are crazy people?
did that makes u awed at us for walking all the way from dover to bugis?
did that makes u say itz impossible?
did that make u short of breath?
etc....( tell me about it in my tagboard)

Yeah....so that is the thing..So now is the adventure STORY!!!

We started of from Dover at around 4.40pm. Initially the plan was to stop at Tiong Bahru. But I think we got too excited to walk that we decided letz just walk till our feet is tired. Thus the journey to Bugis..

So yeah, you guyz know about the trip to Redhill..There is no adventure because we have walked from Dover to Redhill for 4 times already till Fida have memorised the route. Of all the journey from Dover to Redhill, I prefer Queenstown to Redhill best! Guess the reason?? Quick...

Moment of silence...

The reason is.............I get to see a lot of cars around this area...From Jaguar to Lexus, you named it! I will look at the cars and gazed with AWE!!!!!! I just hope I can get those kind of CARS.

So yeah, the reason why the initial plan is to walk from redhill to tiong bahru is because we wanted to see the route without the railtracks..Our hunch was MRT tracks are always straight and the curves are quite minor. So we walked straight from redhill to Tanjong Pagar MRT till we got LOST! Yeah, you got it...LOST..

The adventure when we were lost in Tanjong Pagar towards Raffles Place MRT. We walked straight right? And where did it lead us to? PSA!! HAHAHAZ!!!! So we were shocked. I paniked of course..So I said, we have to turn left...turn and turn and turn...we decided to ask the security guards...herez their reaction:

Me/Us (M): Do you know how to walk from here to Raffles Place MRT?
Security Guard1 (sg) : Looking at us with shocked, "You sure wanna walk from here to Raffles Place?? It takes around 20-30 mins walk ya noe??? Why dont you take the MRT which is much more easier?"
M:No, itz ok...we just want to walk from here to raffles place. We just want to know the direction from here to raffles place mrt...

After much quarrelling among security guard 1 and 2, they decided that we have to take the route where there are more buildings as compared to taking the expressway route which for us thinks it looks very ULU and SCARY....Till now,I can remember their expressions in their faces!!! The shocking look!!

Then, we finally moves off from the security guard laughing at them for belittling us. Imagine if we say we were from Dover MRT..i imagined they would say this, "We suggest you go to Tanjong Pagar MRT and go home better". Hahaz! =D

So yeah, we went and stop at Tanjong Pagar MRT to look at the map and guess what happen! We scolded ourselves cuz there was a SHORT CUT!!!!!!! We could have skipped tanjong pagar and walked thru NEL tracks instead cuz from Outram to Chinatown is much much easier route than walking from Outram to Tanjong Pagar route..It took us 45mins to get from Outram to Tanjong Pagar. The upside is...I took a LOT, LOTs of pictures of old buildings waiting to be demolished...

When we reached Raffles Place MRT, the feeling was(instead of tired) we felt immense joy and excitement!!! We shouted when we reached City Hall MRT...the Singapore River Walk...I shouted..."ARGH!!!!IM SO EXCITED!!!!!!! WE MADE IT!!!!!!!"

Really, I am that excited!!! From dover to City Hall MRT!!! Who wouldnt!!! I mean itz an adventure man!!! REALLY AN ADVENTURE!!!! I get to see a lot of things...The trip to bugis was taking a shorter route by using Suntec City to our destination..Therez a link from Suntec City to Bugis MRT if you realised. So we played cheat but we still reached Bugis..From Dover to Bugis, Ya know!!!!

So yeah...that is the main story I would like to tell you.....

There will be another walk to Bugis this coming february after ma last paper on the 28th February. So anyone who is interested, please tag or msg me on ma phone..I promise you itz gonna be an ADVENTURE!!!

2006-01-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

Here are the rules:

Post 5 random/weird stuff about yourself. List 5 fellow bloggers whom you want to do the same.Visit their blogs and tell them they've been tagged and ask them to read the rules in your blog.

Five weird/random stuffs you need to know bout me...

1) I am a left handed person but are trying to write with my right hand...(hey, not many people are left handers)
2) When I am stressed or tired, I will be a little bit crazy by talking nonsence..(ask my fyp mates or the 4 girls..they know)
3) I just started to be VAIN after BREAKING up with my ex..(ask my friends who saw me do makeover lessons with them)
4) Lurves to play piano but because I have been criticised a lot of time by friends and family, I play for myself only(im hurt inside)
5) I sneeze loudly that it echoes back(asks everyone..they are deaf becuz of me)

The next 5 peeps to continue the tradition are:
1) Aishah
2) Nisa
3) Jeremy
4) Ezahan
5) Zulfadly

The story...

2006-01-25T23:38:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...I am supposed to do the tag thinggy but I guess that have to wait till later cuz I really cant think of the 5 things now..All I could think about was the story I have to say today!!!!

Hmm...I am superbly HAPPY today cuz...........

I met a handsome head..his name is Aminnudin..Hez an ustaz and a handsome one at that...He does reminds me of Ramdhan..My other friend who is studying in Mekkah now..I wonder how is he...Muka sama cuma complexion aja lain..(teruk eh si minah nie?? gi masjid ke cuci mata pun orang tak tahu...hahaz :P)He will be in charge of Al-Iman Youth Wing so I will expect to see his cute face often..Fuh!!! For the first time, a handsome head..Lagi bersemangat nak buat kerja!!! But then...since I will be working in DLS in March...I dun think I have the Time to come for meetings nor activities cuz therez NO HOLIDAYS.......:'( So sad....Never mind, Its ok. I shall leave that to the juniors....

Then, when I reached home, my mum told me that my fav. nephews is coming over this weekend!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!! YEAY!! Hmmm...I wonder how do they look like cuz seriously I heard, they are bigger in size...I am pretty sure the 2nd nephew will look dashing while the eldest will be sweet looking...orang melayu kata hitam manis..I really cant wait..but I have to spring clean my room which is in total mess ryte now(maklumla..Exams is around the corner..2 weeks from now aja...SETERESSSSSSSSSSSSS)...

So yeah..Thatz all about it...

The Plan

2006-01-22T00:20:00.000+08:00

WoriTEY...I better list down the dates for exams week yeah.........

In 3 weekz time...A WEEK after CNY, is Term Test for MBW, CT and is it Estimating n Costing?? Never mind, time table out either this monday or wednesday...

After that is SEMESTER EXAMS...........WOW!!! TAT WAS EARLY??!?!

Then, one week holiday...of which, one day I have to take the BCSS(safety) test for Safety Officer ranking?? So I only rest for 6 days so I cant meet my 2 fav. nephews again...:'(

Then...13th march...Working in DLS which is in TOWN!!!! Cant wait but I dunnoe...Annual dinner and dance will be on the 17th March..Got that Mr?? Wanna go wit me?? MSN me or Msg me.. Alrighty!?!?!!? $55 buckz per person..at Swiss Hotel at Merchant Court..Near my workplace..

So tentatively...this are the dates according to order:-

13-17th February Term Test
20th Feb - 3rd March Sem exams
7th or 8th March BCSS test
13th March 6th Month Probation period at DLS
17th March Annual Dinner and Dance for DE skewl
12 Sept...... If I pass the probation period..I am OFFICIALLY working at DLS

Yeah..the thing is...Without understanding whatever the lecturer is talking about in class..I can only see a lot of Failures in this test..I shall persevere cuz I know I can!!! Prayers again for me that I will pass this last streak of Poly..Cuz I am in my FINAL YEAR and I just want to go out of POLY!

Tired of studying but working in DLS will be a learning experience for me as I gain and learn at the same time to prepare me for further study overseas..still thinking of a country...Hahaz(like I have the money) At the most, ill study part time in NUS with this line of Construction Industry..6 years or is it 4 years..I dunnoe??

So watz the plan from now till examz period........

Hmmm....study, finish up the project on hand(really, the lecturers are out to kill us)..after fyp, more mini projects coming up..., finish up UNFINISHED hwk of Con Tech(lazy to draw cuz i know my drawing sux) and study for the test again...I wonder, wherez the life in that?? Hmm..with fida asking me to go to GYM, i think therez sum life in it...Muz TONE my body!!!